Ep 3 – Marthah Maple | When a Gamertag Doesn’t Fit Anymore, and the 30s Era That Followed

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Yeah, man, like Frodo's over here with like Aerosmith's daughter, and then all of a sudden it's like Mountain Dew.

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It's like I don't know how these things relate what?

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Yeah, there was a Mountain Dew commercial with like Game Attack.

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Hey, welcome to Gamertag.

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T his is episode three, and today we're going to be talking to Martha Maple.

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This episode explores what happens when we outgrow our names and the people we were when we chose them.

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Joining me tonight is Portabella, who will be our co-host and our editor for this episode of Gamertagged.

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Martha Maple's journey from Gangstaboo 3000 isn't just a username swap.

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It's a reflection of shifting identity, community and self-expression.

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Marthah, thanks for joining us tonight to talk about your evolution.

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Thank you.

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Thank you, I'm excited.

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We're super excited.

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This, this mic sounds amazing, by the way it does sound very good, yes wow, wow, okay, um, hey.

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So in the first part of this episode we're gonna jump into, like, um, your origin story, right.

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So when, uh, when you started let's like let's start at the beginning like your original gamer tag was not marthah maple, what were you and what do you remember about, like becoming that first gamer tag, or identity?

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yeah, um, I was gangsta boo 3000.

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Yeah.

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Yeah, I heard the shit out of that, you know.

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So I didn't come up with Gangsta Vu 3000 myself.

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I was pretty new to like the gaming space.

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My ex-husband was a big gamer and I kind of got to the point where I was like, if you can't beat him, join him.

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Yeah.

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And coming up with a name was really hard, I'm not that creative.

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And he was spitballing and said gangsta boo from three, six mafia.

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And I was like that sounds pretty dope, so I went with gangsta boo.

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Uh, that one was taken and my favorite number is three, so I went for a three and that one.

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It just didn't feel right, so I added 3,000 to it bro, were you thinking like Andre?

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3,000 at the time, or what I?

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get that question all the time?

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I actually was not.

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I mean, hey, you did it better, yeah yeah, all right, so you're.

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You're just like he.

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He gives you this name, right, like that's where you start, and so what?

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What is it like?

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Like you have your gamer tag for the first time, you're gangsta boo 3000.

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Do you introduce yourself to like people on the street as gangsta boo 3000, like?

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Is that how you roll?

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not at first, man, not at first.

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I think I had like a two-week stunt of streaming for a while there and then I did, and then I was like wait, hold up.

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Yeah, like that.

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What were you playing back then?

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A lot of Call of Duty.

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It's not something I'm proud of, but that's what I was doing.

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Like COD 2?

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So I actually started on Black Ops 2.

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Oh yeah, okay cool.

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Dude, I think at that point I was still running into walls cause I couldn't figure out how to maneuver.

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We all got to start somewhere.

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Right, dude, it was bad.

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I still I remember sitting there on the floor playing my Xbox and running into a wall and being like why am I getting nowhere?

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So 3000, right, like you said, you, you, you, your favorite number is your favorite number three.

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Yeah, okay, all right.

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So 3000, it's like futuristic, it sounds cool, like so, nothing to do with Andre, it's just like, hey, I'm going to pick the number Boom, 3000.

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I love it, that's.

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That's really big energy.

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By the way, that kind of fits Big energy.

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Yeah, that's who?

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Gangsta?

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Boo was.

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Oh, okay, all right.

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Can you describe what Gangsta Boo was?

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I think that would be awesome.

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You know, Gangsta Boo, she didn't give a f**k okay, she was going into lobby, she was talking, she was making friends with everybody um couldn't back up any of her, but she sure was talking it so do you think you were better at talking than you were like shooting bullets back in the day?

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for sure hell yeah, dude hell yeah, for sure hell, yeah, it just it seems crazy because just talking to you, you seem like such like the opposite of what you're describing.

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Was that part of the, is that part of the appeal of being gangsta boo to you?

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Or because it seems like it's completely different?

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yeah, no for sure.

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Uh, gangsta boo is definitely like a personality that I could hide behind.

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Um, in real life I'm like very reserved, very quiet.

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It kind of takes a little bit to get to know me and get me out of my shell, um, but gangsta boo being online and just playing games for the f**k of it, it really gave me an outlet to let those parts of my personality shine that don't naturally shine in real life.

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Yeah, it's a way to kind of be not necessarily a more truer self, but to be more an elevated version of yourself in that way.

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Yeah, exactly, exactly.

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That's a really good way of putting it, yeah exactly, exactly.

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That's a really good way of putting it.

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That's wild, bro, cause I, I, I mean you've always had like every time.

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If so, you have a huge personality, right?

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Like I was saying earlier, we've hung out a couple of times but I mean, yeah, you're really good at prop hunt, you know what I mean.

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Like that's like your top top 10 in the world at prop hunt, right, or something like that.

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Top three, top three Top three yeah, yeah, got it.

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And I do that on purpose, because I want to stay at three.

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That's my favorite number.

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Looking for the bronze medal.

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Yeah, yeah, yeah, make some eyes pop, so like.

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So I have this problem a lot right, like there's a lot of SCARTOs, s-c-a-r-t-o, like that's pretty common.

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Like I don't know, I thought I was super original and super cool.

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Apparently, like every time I try to like create an account, like that can happen where there's like multiple Scartos, so like I'm now Scarto 46 and everyone's like oh, you're lame, cause you got numbers after your name.

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Yeah, I mean, I've got that a lot.

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It's cool.

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So like, have you ever had that problem where you're like trying to, you know, like create or engage with someone and they had that gangsta boo name?

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Was that a problem that you experienced?

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Not since I added the 3000.

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I've never run it.

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I honestly I've run into people that have like gangsta something, but I don't think I've ever run into a gangsta boo, and surely not a gangsta boo 3000.

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I've never had that issue securing that did you ever feel lame because of your numbers?

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Anyone make fun of you?

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Absolutely not, dude.

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That makes it cooler.

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Yeah, that's what I said, bro.

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That's what I said too, so that's right.

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Yeah, um.

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So I, when we were talking um, or I think you know, before you said there was a moment like there's a real, there was a real gangsta boo like on twitch.

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Is that right?

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uh, so she was actually a rapper for three, six mafia oh, word, word.

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So you really thought about reaching out to the gangsta, gangsta boo from three, six mafia?

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I actually did reach out to her because I was considering taking Twitch streaming a little more seriously.

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I wanted to kind of like make it a brand and I started getting hung up on the well, am I kind of violating any kind of?

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Yeah, infringement, yeah exactly.

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So I found her on Instagram and I shot her a message and I bet I could pull it up.

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Okay, so I found it.

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Yes, excellent, I can't wait Okay so the message I sent her was really long, but it was basically just like hey, I'm a nobody and I want to stream on Twitch.

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I've been using Gangstaboo3000 as my name, like is there an issue with that?

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Is it okay if I use that?

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Do I have your permission, do you have any thoughts on it, type thing.

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And she responded to me within an hour, by the way, which I thought was pretty dope.

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I was like look at me, look at me, go Uh.

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But she said my name is Gangsta Boo, not Gangsta Boo 3000.

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Those are my thoughts.

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I was like very well thanks.

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Wow, All right.

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Well, I think like we've kind of talked through the Gangsta Boo 3000.

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So is there anything else like you want to add on about that particular time in your identity Right, Like that, like where?

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Your identity right Like that, like where you were, like how you were thinking, or maybe not like.

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Maybe that likes gives you a good perspective of it, but I don't know, I think.

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I think that's about the gist, like.

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I mean, really in that time I was just kind of figuring out who I was as a gamer, what I was into, kind of the circles I wanted to run in and game in, you know.

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So like that's not your name anymore, you don't go by gangsta boo 3000 anymore.

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Um, so like we're going to shift into that.

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Yeah, it's more so because right now, obviously, your name is Martha Maples and we were really curious what sparked what sparked the idea to change your name, and not only that, to change it to Martha, of all things uh, so the name change was a long time coming.

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Um, I had left my ex-husband and the name was given to me by my ex-husband, and so it felt like kind of a skin I needed to shed in a way.

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Um, and in addition to that, having boo in my name, um invited some unwelcome comments and stuff from male gamers that you know it's.

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It's just weird to be playing like a competitive shooter and to be called boo every round.

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I didn't like that and so it was time to like especially when you're dunking on them.

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That's what I'm saying.

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That's embarrassing for them.

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I don't know why they would want to go that route.

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So when did your name change?

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Like what?

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So you were headed towards a name change like.

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You said like, but like what?

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Was there like a moment like that?

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This happened like.

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Um, there was, it was um, so it was.

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It took me years to finally find Martha and like it.

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Martha was the first name in years that felt right to me and I didn't want to change my name until it was something that like, I liked and felt right.

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Um, and so I think it was like 2021, 2020, maybe, maybe 2020.

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Um, I was playing Valorant and.

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Um, I was in a lobby with some canadian gamers and one of them was a woman that had a twitch channel and she linked it at the end of the game and I was like all right dope, so I went to check her out, give her a view.

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Um, and we got to talking in there and it turned out that they were also 30 something year old gamers, which kind of a hard find, kind of a rare find.

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So I was like, oh, this is cool, like people my age that play the games I like to play.

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Um, they invited me into their discord server and the first couple of times I went in there, we would just like kind of play games, shoot the shit.

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Uh, and eventually I gave them my real name and I'm not sure why I did that.

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It's not something that I usually do um, but I gave them my real name and then I think one of the people in the server kind of realized that I felt weird about giving my real name.

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So the next time I joined he was like, oh yeah, you said your name was Martha, right?

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And?

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And at first I was like why is he calling me Martha?

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That's not my name.

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And he kept calling me Martha and it kind of stuck.

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And then there was this other guy in the server oh, he's a goofy guy, he's a really nice guy but he's not the brightest bulb and so he changed my Discord server profile to to Martha, but he put an h at the end hell yeah, as soon as I saw that, I was like that's it, I'm.

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Martha, that's amazing one, that is super cool that that dude was like oh yeah, um, your name is Martha, right, like that.

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That's, that's super cool.

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Uh, but, dude, who were you?

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So you said there was years in between, right, like, who were you in between?

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I was still gangsta boo and hating it I didn't want to be gangsta boo anymore, yeah, but I couldn't.

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I I was not creative enough to find something on my own.

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I guess that, like, really felt right.

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I felt like everything that I was coming up was like very 90s aol, yeah yeah it's, it's so hard like, um, it's like you're trying to put a label or you're trying to like yeah, what is the right way to say this?

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It's like you're trying to to name something that you can't see, but you feel or you think about and it's got to like fit you, and that, like that time in between is like real weird, right, like you know, you're not that thing anymore and you're trying to make a decision and like I think it's hard for everybody to like, maybe not maybe some people like, yeah, just a random name generator, but like it's kind of like how you represent yourself to the the world, you know.

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And so I totally get that like in between time.

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And when you, when you said that Martha fit, like what was, what was it about that?

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Like it was just like it just like made sense.

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Is that what you're saying?

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I think it was the flair of the h at the end.

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I was like I could represent that that's different without being too different.

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Martha is a very unassuming name and I felt like it kind of fit the era of my life that I was in.

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I wasn't um, like gangsta boo.

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She was the life of the party in every party that she was in, you know um, yeah, yeah and Martha.

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It just kind of I had gotten away from that.

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I was feeling more secure in myself and my online identity and I let my gaming speak for itself, you know like my skill in the games rather than like my personality.

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Um.

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So I was like, yeah, it could be Martha, like you had grown to a point where you're like, yeah, I'm confident in, like I mean no one, no one knows this but like you're you're really good at competitive shooters, you know.

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So like yeah, no, you're scary Good, but like you've gotten to this point where you're like you're like ready to it's like you right.

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And I think what's cool about what you're talking about is like who you were when you were younger, like fit that model, but who you grew into no longer made sense Like of your relationship, just your personality.

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You grew as a person and you're like dude.

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I gotta figure out how do I represent that to other people Exactly.

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That dude somewhere right now is probably still misspelling Martha.

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You know that right.

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Dude, he's misspelling everything.

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I think he has a four-letter name and, Dude, he's misspelling everything.

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I think he has a four-letter name and I think he probably misspells that.

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Fucking love that.

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I love that guy.

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I don't even know him, but like.

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He's doing his best out there, that's all we can ask for.

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He's the sweetest guy.

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He means so well.

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Yeah, but put him in a spelling bee and he's getting dumpstered.

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He's done.

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What were y'all playing on the Canadian server, valorant?

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Valorant and CSGO.

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Oh my God See, I don't, bro.

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I don't understand.

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Okay, like separate note.

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I don't understand why people love Counter-Strike or Valorant.

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It's round-based and you get, okay for me, all right.

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Younger version of me would get on Counter-Strike because that was a thing back in the day and I was like, yeah, man, I'm going to play Counter-Strike.

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And then I'd buy all the stuff, I'd walk one foot out the door and just get ripped like dead right, and I don't like that experience for me.

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Maybe that was like, maybe it's just trauma, like childhood trauma, right, but my experience with like Counter-Strike has always been like, not that I'm getting better, it's just that I am a piñata, that's probably the best way to describe it.

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You know, maybe shooters just aren't for you.

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Maybe that's the problem.

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I played shooters my entire life, just the shooters that required me to get shot more than once.

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And in those games, like you get shot, you're done.

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What is it that?

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you love about those games that I just don't get.

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You know it's it's tough to play them when you're getting on, but when you're doing the one shitting, when you're doing the one shitting, when you're the one doing this, yeah, oh yeah, it's the best whenever you're around it's, this is back to your, this is back to your, your big energy.

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Yeah, yeah, yeah, bro, absolutely absolutely, and like it's funny too because, like you know, especially with counter-strike, there's lobbies that a woman just cannot talk in what do do you?

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so this is this is like me asking a question.

00:17:46.073 --> 00:17:52.205
Like when you say, like there are like lobbies that a woman cannot talk in, like what do you mean by that?

00:17:52.205 --> 00:17:54.762
Like cause it's just like you're everyone's, like oh, it's a girl.

00:17:54.762 --> 00:17:56.809
First time I saw a girl like that kind of thing.

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I mean, if it's just a oh, it's a girl, it's a girl that's I, a girl that's I, can handle that.

00:18:09.582 --> 00:18:14.031
It's when they start shitting on you for being a girl, um, harassing you, cussing you out, throwing the game team killing, all that kind of stuff.

00:18:14.031 --> 00:18:16.582
That happens a lot yeah, I don't.

00:18:16.682 --> 00:18:17.443
I don't understand that.

00:18:17.443 --> 00:18:27.182
Um, mostly because male, female, whatever, dude like everybody's playing, having fun, man, like don't be a, it's all there is.

00:18:27.182 --> 00:18:28.967
Like it's just don't be a dick.

00:18:28.967 --> 00:18:36.391
Also, if you're really worried about like your orientation, like there's probably other things to worry about.

00:18:36.391 --> 00:18:37.532
You know like what?

00:18:37.532 --> 00:18:39.604
Why not worry about like meteors hitting the earth?

00:18:39.604 --> 00:18:42.871
Why not like worry about like recycling?

00:18:42.871 --> 00:18:43.859
You know what I mean.

00:18:43.859 --> 00:18:44.803
Like just worry about something else.

00:18:44.803 --> 00:18:45.523
It's so dumb.

00:18:45.564 --> 00:18:54.267
Isn't that one of those things where they, from my experience, it's almost like they're just not confident enough in themselves.

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So the idea that someone else who is not the same gender as them, or regardless of whatever gender they are, and they get so intimidated by that fact that they have to project it towards the air quotes weakest player or who looks the weakest?

00:19:10.344 --> 00:19:21.413
their insecurities become your problem bro, I learned so much about what I think good dudes look like from being afraid of my mother and raising a daughter or being part of her life.

00:19:21.413 --> 00:19:23.122
Like, like, that's it.

00:19:23.122 --> 00:19:26.968
Like seeing the world like is created for women through her eyes.

00:19:26.968 --> 00:19:32.756
I'm like, well, I just need to like crush everyone that is an asshole Right.

00:19:32.756 --> 00:19:35.769
Or like create safe spaces where people can like do shit.

00:19:35.769 --> 00:19:42.031
Like she her existence drives 80% of the way that I engage with the planet.

00:19:42.031 --> 00:19:47.932
All right, so let's talk about Martha Maple.

00:19:48.901 --> 00:19:49.884
Let's talk about her, okay.

00:19:51.721 --> 00:20:00.410
So who are you today, right, like in the lens of this name, like as Martha with a silent H or you know whatever?

00:20:00.410 --> 00:20:09.583
Who are you today Like, wow, can you describe what, what, what it looks like, what it feels like, like color shapes, energy, like?

00:20:09.583 --> 00:20:11.444
Who is martha maple?

00:20:11.444 --> 00:20:13.288
Uh?

00:20:15.790 --> 00:20:16.411
I mean colors.

00:20:16.411 --> 00:20:26.307
It's got to be pink, um, but I I guess, like martha, is just somebody that wants to spread kindness.

00:20:27.308 --> 00:20:38.799
She's chill, laid back, shapes and energy I don't know like, if you thought about it right, like even just like inspirations, like what, like?

00:20:38.839 --> 00:20:49.040
what worlds do you see martha in, if that makes sense yeah, yeah, exactly martha's in outer space, for sure outer space.

00:20:49.141 --> 00:20:53.852
Okay, like like on mars no, she's just floating out there.

00:20:54.053 --> 00:21:01.118
She's in the milky way with all the pretty colors swirling around her and stars and planets in the distance uh-huh.

00:21:01.480 --> 00:21:12.404
But she's like, is she like, uh, she's like dressed in like, uh, armor, or she's just like drifting man, she's just chilling just chilling.

00:21:12.625 --> 00:21:15.897
She's just laid back, taking it all in okay she's like.

00:21:15.998 --> 00:21:25.268
That actually makes martha super terrifying because, like she's not outwardly aggressive, right, she's like scared I'm at peace yeah, you're at peace, bro.

00:21:25.268 --> 00:21:26.155
You're making decisions.

00:21:26.155 --> 00:21:37.576
You're like, yeah, whatever, it's fine that's cool that's freaking awesome, okay, um, so she's drifting through space and she's uh, there's a lot of pink and you're in the stars of the milky way.

00:21:37.576 --> 00:21:41.564
Um, does she have like a?

00:21:41.564 --> 00:21:43.567
She have like a weapon on or anything?

00:21:43.567 --> 00:21:52.355
Nah, she's just like jean shorts and a t-shirt like YOLO 420?

00:21:52.654 --> 00:21:58.743
You know, okay, martha would be wearing something like.

00:21:58.743 --> 00:22:03.190
See, it doesn't make sense, for space, though, is the problem.

00:22:05.075 --> 00:22:05.375
Doesn't matter.

00:22:05.395 --> 00:22:10.045
If it makes sense, bro, it's all about leaning towards like a lord of the rings, elven vibe.

00:22:10.045 --> 00:22:16.541
She's got like a bow and arrow and a really cool cape and hood do you love lord of the rings?

00:22:17.384 --> 00:22:20.548
I love lord of the rings.

00:22:20.548 --> 00:22:21.569
Let's go.

00:22:21.569 --> 00:22:25.976
I have this debate all the time and everyone's like, oh no, I love Star Wars and I'm like I don't even want to talk to you anymore.

00:22:25.976 --> 00:22:26.875
No, what?

00:22:26.875 --> 00:22:29.838
Yeah, lamos, right, like, come on, lord of the Rings is where it's at.

00:22:30.618 --> 00:22:32.320
Here's the thing Star Wars is good.

00:22:32.320 --> 00:22:37.064
Don't get me wrong, I was Star Wars, whereas Lord of the Rings I have to watch that at minimum.

00:22:37.064 --> 00:22:39.006
Marathon it twice a year At minimum.

00:22:51.654 --> 00:22:52.999
So this is going to determine the fate of our future friendship.

00:22:52.999 --> 00:22:54.261
Okay, so this is a simple question that I need you to answer.

00:22:54.261 --> 00:22:58.674
The simple question is which Lord of the Rings is the Lord of the Rings?

00:22:58.694 --> 00:23:08.601
That is true, yes, they're also good in their different ways, but think it's got to be, uh, the two towers, because the battles in it.

00:23:09.103 --> 00:23:09.845
Let's go that.

00:23:09.845 --> 00:23:10.929
That is the best.

00:23:10.929 --> 00:23:37.183
So every time like I'm not feeling good or I'm like I want to chill or whatever that I put, I literally put that movie on and I play it all the way and I watch it and the girls are like this psychopath sat downstairs for three hours watching the stupid movie and I have watched it a thousand times, but two hours because it's so much progression from like yeah, man, we were just hanging out and like Frodo found this ring, to like bro, we're doing Helms Deep over here and like that movie is fire.

00:23:38.214 --> 00:23:39.842
Yeah, I know that movie is so good.

00:23:39.842 --> 00:23:46.240
I cannot relate to just watching one out of sequence, randomly, though I have to watch them.

00:23:46.240 --> 00:23:47.938
If I'm watching one, I'm watching them all.

00:23:48.599 --> 00:23:53.840
When you think about the original Lord of the Rings, what's the first thing that comes to your mind?

00:23:53.840 --> 00:23:57.428
First word Legolas.

00:23:57.428 --> 00:24:01.722
Okay, well, that wasn't mine.

00:24:01.722 --> 00:24:04.928
Wow, I don't know what you Wow.

00:24:04.928 --> 00:24:06.580
I mean you asked I don't know what you expected.

00:24:08.900 --> 00:24:10.945
I thought we were vibing, but now I understand.

00:24:10.945 --> 00:24:13.320
So mine is Mountain Dew.

00:24:13.320 --> 00:24:23.324
Okay, do you remember those commercials back in the day where it's like, yeah, man, like Frodo's over here with like Aerosmith's daughter, and then all of a sudden it's like Mountain Dew.

00:24:23.324 --> 00:24:32.018
It's like wow, I don't know how these things relate like yeah, there was a Mountain Dew commercial with like Frodo getting like Liv Tyler is like taking.

00:24:32.038 --> 00:24:34.240
Frodo across the river right, is it Liv Tyler?

00:24:34.240 --> 00:24:35.980
Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

00:24:35.980 --> 00:24:40.690
And then it's like Red Mountain Dew is out now, code red, and I'm like what the fuck are you talking about?

00:24:40.690 --> 00:24:41.074
That's funny.

00:24:41.496 --> 00:24:47.642
I lived overseas when it came out, so I wouldn't have seen that commercial, but that sounds fucking hilarious.

00:24:47.682 --> 00:24:53.983
I'm gonna have to look that up on youtube like the most american thing ever, where it's like, yeah, don't worry, we're gonna.

00:24:53.983 --> 00:24:55.976
We're gonna save the, we're gonna save the ring.

00:24:55.976 --> 00:24:58.182
But, by the way, do you want to buy some mountain dew, like what?

00:24:58.682 --> 00:25:05.165
everybody's like of course I do, I think mine's definitely gonna be be probably the Shire.

00:25:05.205 --> 00:25:06.367
That's the first thing that came to my brain.

00:25:07.317 --> 00:25:08.788
Oh man, I want to live in a hobbit.

00:25:08.788 --> 00:25:12.403
I actually just recently got a tattoo on my arm of a hobbit hole.

00:25:13.474 --> 00:25:14.258
That's freaking awesome.

00:25:14.258 --> 00:25:15.542
Can I tell you another story right now?

00:25:15.542 --> 00:25:18.684
So, portabella, we used to play Minecraft together.

00:25:20.036 --> 00:25:22.104
I don't know if we used to pool, oh yeah, actually.

00:25:22.104 --> 00:25:25.154
No, it continued, we definitely did and I'll tell you how this happened.

00:25:26.385 --> 00:25:27.295
I learned a brutal lesson.

00:25:27.295 --> 00:25:34.025
I built a hobbit hole, mostly because I didn't know how to build crazy stuff, so I dug a hole in the ground.

00:25:34.025 --> 00:25:37.365
I dug a hole in the ground, I put a goat in there.

00:25:37.365 --> 00:25:38.157
I did all kinds of stuff.

00:25:38.157 --> 00:25:40.200
There was like a water fountain.

00:25:40.200 --> 00:25:40.821
I thought it was cool.

00:25:40.821 --> 00:25:51.759
She moved in with me for like probably two hours and then she started like trying to make the hobbit hole perfect and I'm like no dude, it doesn't have, it's just, it's just a hole.

00:25:52.040 --> 00:25:53.605
You know, like you, don't have just a dirt hole.

00:25:53.605 --> 00:26:03.980
You had to add some like floors, and it was homie no, dude, you didn't have to be homie hello it was homie-ish, like me and my goat were fine until she moved in.

00:26:04.583 --> 00:26:05.464
Yeah, totally.

00:26:05.464 --> 00:26:09.804
She moved in and then here's here's the crazier part of this story she goes out.

00:26:09.804 --> 00:26:10.807
I think I've heard enough.

00:26:10.807 --> 00:26:12.358
She moves out.

00:26:12.358 --> 00:26:13.642
Right, this is, this is a.

00:26:13.642 --> 00:26:13.942
It was a.

00:26:13.942 --> 00:26:16.615
It was like a precursor to understanding how life would go.

00:26:16.615 --> 00:26:18.785
She moves out, she builds her own house.

00:26:18.785 --> 00:26:19.769
Her house is gorgeous.

00:26:19.769 --> 00:26:24.404
She's like oh look, I even built a roller coaster in my house and i'm'm like I did not do that.

00:26:24.566 --> 00:26:26.923
No, I'm still planting freaking seeds for my hobbit hole.

00:26:26.923 --> 00:26:30.461
And then we had a graveyard where our first horse was and his name was Glue.

00:26:30.461 --> 00:26:32.594
That she named Fuck what she's psychopath.

00:26:33.115 --> 00:26:33.959
That is not no.

00:26:33.959 --> 00:26:35.537
No, that did not happen.

00:26:36.862 --> 00:26:37.776
It kind of happened like that.

00:26:37.776 --> 00:26:38.477
Who do you believe?

00:26:39.759 --> 00:26:40.740
I believe Portabella.

00:26:42.243 --> 00:26:45.269
Well, you also know that you're siding with evil.

00:26:53.676 --> 00:27:05.028
So earlier when we were talking, you were kind of describing your gangstaboo name almost like an era of your life, and it's interesting to say that you kind of view them as what seems, seems like almost like time stamps.

00:27:05.028 --> 00:27:09.941
Um, what does Martha, in terms of like an era of your life capture, like where you are right now?

00:27:12.424 --> 00:27:17.876
um, so when you think of Martha, you don't really think of somebody like young and hip, right.

00:27:17.876 --> 00:27:20.598
Uh, I'm in my.

00:27:20.598 --> 00:27:21.919
I'm in my 30s era man.

00:27:21.919 --> 00:27:22.720
I'm in my 30s era man.

00:27:22.720 --> 00:27:33.365
I still game, obviously, but I'm also teaching myself how to crochet, I'm doing puzzles and reading books more and I feel like Martha just kind of fits that better.

00:27:33.365 --> 00:27:47.964
It fits the more relaxed era of my life that I'm in, where I'm not trying so hard, I'm just enjoying the now, whereas Gangsta Boo is very much trying hard.

00:27:51.797 --> 00:27:55.144
You're telling me that you crochet and play Valorant.

00:27:55.144 --> 00:27:57.601
You're so multi-talented.

00:27:57.601 --> 00:27:58.182
That's insane.

00:27:58.914 --> 00:28:00.662
Dude, and they're so different right.

00:28:02.236 --> 00:28:03.240
So like what do you crochet?

00:28:06.015 --> 00:28:17.109
So right now I've just been doing a lot of like stuffies um, oh, yeah, okay yeah, um, but I wanted to uh blanket here soon.

00:28:17.109 --> 00:28:19.417
I found a really cool pattern all right.

00:28:19.438 --> 00:28:25.429
So, um, how has your relationship with, like, your identity changed since you became Martha?

00:28:25.429 --> 00:28:29.183
Like, you talked a lot about you know, like the shit.

00:28:29.183 --> 00:28:30.267
By the way, I want to go back on that.

00:28:30.267 --> 00:28:33.757
Like you said, 30 year old, I'm on the 30s gamers they have.

00:28:33.757 --> 00:28:34.644
30s gamers are cool.

00:28:34.644 --> 00:28:39.477
Okay, like we're the only people who've seen it all, anyway.

00:28:39.477 --> 00:28:40.883
So, yeah, 30s gamers are cool.

00:28:40.883 --> 00:28:42.603
That's a that's a thing that we should leave in.

00:28:42.603 --> 00:28:43.205
30s gamers are cool.

00:28:43.205 --> 00:28:43.990
That's a thing that we should leave in.

00:28:43.990 --> 00:28:44.553
30s gamers are the best.

00:28:44.553 --> 00:28:44.914
Come get some.

00:28:44.914 --> 00:28:51.425
Yeah, for real, how has your relationship with identity changed since becoming Martha?

00:28:51.425 --> 00:28:53.761
Like, what's that evolution been like for you?

00:28:53.761 --> 00:28:58.826
Maybe like in person, or like online, or what's happened with that?

00:29:12.134 --> 00:29:14.982
um, so when I first started changing everything to Martha, I didn't at first.

00:29:14.982 --> 00:29:18.152
It was just uh, I'm just changing my name, I'm not changing anything about myself.

00:29:18.152 --> 00:29:24.490
Um, and I went into a twitch chat that I had been in prior and the streamer record stall my comment.

00:29:24.490 --> 00:29:33.696
Something that I commented and was like oh uh, I've never seen your name before, but, um, it's not saying that you're a first time chatter.

00:29:33.696 --> 00:29:36.714
And I was like oh no, no, no, I like I've been here for a while, it's gangsta boo.

00:29:36.714 --> 00:29:40.440
And he was like oh shit, okay cool, you like had a rebrand.

00:29:40.440 --> 00:29:48.951
And someone in this chat was like oh wow, like the rebrand to from gangsta boo to Martha is like a total one 80.

00:29:49.035 --> 00:30:07.538
And I had to take like a step back, a step back and be like, oh it actually is like I never, like they have very, very different implications and when I started looking into that I just kind of realized that, like I am in my low key era, what do you mean?

00:30:07.618 --> 00:30:08.122
implications?

00:30:08.122 --> 00:30:10.864
So like, when you say implications, what do you mean by that?

00:30:11.694 --> 00:30:12.176
I mean OK.

00:30:12.176 --> 00:30:13.903
So when I was getting through 3000.

00:30:13.903 --> 00:30:21.507
People see the name and they make an assumption of what Gangsta Boo 3000 is going to talk like or what they're going to sound like.

00:30:21.907 --> 00:30:22.028
Yeah.

00:30:23.877 --> 00:30:26.940
So when I would speak, people would always be caught off guard.

00:30:26.940 --> 00:30:29.229
They'd be like oh, what do you mean?

00:30:29.229 --> 00:30:30.574
Your name is gangsta 3000.

00:30:30.574 --> 00:30:32.617
Like what the hell is this you?

00:30:32.617 --> 00:30:51.463
Know, I played into that a lot, but you don't expect to hear like this shrill voice and like bubbly personality coming from gangsta boo 3000, but you would be more inclined to believe it to come from martha yeah, I get you.

00:30:51.483 --> 00:30:52.527
I understand what you mean by that.

00:30:52.527 --> 00:30:53.598
That's cool.

00:30:53.598 --> 00:30:58.257
So like they recognize that you have like the same avatar or whatever when you were in their chat.

00:30:58.257 --> 00:30:59.219
So what happened?

00:31:00.201 --> 00:31:01.202
I think I changed it.

00:31:01.202 --> 00:31:07.421
I think I just I changed like my picture, I changed my name, I changed like all my socials oh word.

00:31:07.441 --> 00:31:10.476
So they were like you're totally new here and they were just like yeah, let me like.

00:31:10.476 --> 00:31:14.865
Yeah, yeah, that's cool, that's super cool rebrand.

00:31:14.865 --> 00:31:15.406
I like that.

00:31:15.406 --> 00:31:15.767
I like that.

00:31:15.767 --> 00:31:18.359
Someone said it was a rebrand I know me too.

00:31:18.421 --> 00:31:18.981
I like that too.

00:31:19.021 --> 00:31:31.862
I was like oh shit, I did rebrand myself, huh so what like so, in terms of a rebrand, you seem like you're so comfortable in yourself now, at this point in your life.

00:31:31.862 --> 00:31:39.708
Do you think you'd have any advice that Martha would have any advice to give to Gangsta Boo now?

00:31:42.780 --> 00:31:44.365
Yeah, I would tell her to calm down.

00:31:44.365 --> 00:31:54.815
Don't try so hard, just chill and, like the people that are meant to be in your life long term, will be in your life long term.

00:31:54.815 --> 00:32:01.528
You don't have to try and be a persona in order to make that happen, just relax.

00:32:03.955 --> 00:32:25.967
I freaking love that dude yeah gangsta was high strung man she was intense, I mean she was a lot I think, um, I think that's really good advice, which is like I think it's so cool that you could like look back at the different sides of yourself and be like man.

00:32:25.967 --> 00:32:31.779
I just needed to chill out, yeah, but like when you're when you were starting out, when you're young, you're like you know you're taught when you're young, like you gotta go.

00:32:31.779 --> 00:32:38.441
When you're young, you're like you know you're taught when you're young like you gotta go get it and like hustle and push and you know and you know.

00:32:38.441 --> 00:32:40.893
But I love that.

00:32:40.913 --> 00:33:00.165
You're like dude, just chill out, it'll all work out you know, I think that, um, I don't know, maybe I'll change my uh gamer tag when I hit my 40s and I'm entering into a new era, because I really think that Gangsta Boo was very 20s and Martha Maple is very 30s.

00:33:00.165 --> 00:33:02.656
I might return to her in my 60s.

00:33:02.656 --> 00:33:07.378
I feel that Hell yeah, but who knows what's in store for my 40s.

00:33:08.691 --> 00:33:18.218
What would you say to someone who's like, who's like in an identity today and like, feel stuck and like you know I mean that happens.

00:33:18.218 --> 00:33:25.191
Right, like where we're, we've been a thing for a while and that creates expectations about like who we have to be in social circles or or whatever.

00:33:25.191 --> 00:33:25.691
Right, like.

00:33:25.691 --> 00:33:29.015
But what would you say to someone who's like stuck in a name that doesn't fit anymore?

00:33:33.619 --> 00:33:40.047
I'd probably just tell them that it can be scary, but to just start the process of letting go.

00:33:40.047 --> 00:33:44.049
It's okay to like grow out of things.

00:33:44.049 --> 00:33:50.262
It's okay to grow out of friend circles or games or whatever it is.

00:33:50.262 --> 00:33:52.914
It's not something that you have to rush.

00:33:52.914 --> 00:34:01.040
Let it happen the way that it happens, but don't put too much pressure on yourself that is great advice.

00:34:02.304 --> 00:34:02.683
I love it.

00:34:02.683 --> 00:34:05.155
We've kind of talked around this a little bit.

00:34:05.155 --> 00:34:12.235
Um, we talked about a little bit earlier, but what is the competitive gaming scene like for you?

00:34:15.699 --> 00:34:20.264
uh, you know I love my competitive games, but I really go into them.

00:34:20.264 --> 00:34:24.416
I'm just trying to have fun and I'm just trying to get better, like as a shooter.

00:34:24.416 --> 00:34:27.710
Um, I'm trying to work on my game sense and stuff.

00:34:27.710 --> 00:34:39.889
So I really I don't take it too seriously, but I am trying to win Um.

00:34:39.889 --> 00:34:43.376
So when you get a good team, you get a good team and you guys vibe well and you play better, um, uh, being a woman, it can.

00:34:43.376 --> 00:34:45.481
It's a.

00:34:45.481 --> 00:34:58.280
It's a bit of a 50, 50 on whether or not you're going to have a good chill team where everybody acts normal though Um, and then, especially as a woman, once they know that you're a woman and you're having a bad game, that's it like.

00:34:58.320 --> 00:35:30.474
You might as well mute all comms, turn off your headset and just zone out for the rest of the game yeah, I mean because because in that, in that world, like it's all about comms, like you you're not winning and you have to win through comms, so like if you're making calls or whatever, or you're engaging, and like you're always having to put yourself out there, I guess is the point I'm making, like that you are a female, that you are like playing the game that can create a lot of different scenarios for you yeah, for sure.

00:35:30.494 --> 00:35:53.657
I have to be very hyper aware in every lobby that I get into and kind of wait for a couple of other people to stay, staff to kind of get their vibe and know if it, if it's going to go south if I speak or not yeah, and for clarification, just so I can kind of clarify what types of like competitive games.

00:35:53.677 --> 00:36:01.943
Games are your bread and butter, what type of competitive games do you love to play and stuff, or good at at that too.

00:36:04.429 --> 00:36:07.360
Valorant and CS and I've been getting into it.

00:36:07.360 --> 00:36:13.898
I don't know if you can necessarily consider it a competitive game or a competitive shooter, but I really enjoy the finals.

00:36:13.898 --> 00:36:17.494
Me and my little brother have been playing that a lot recently and it's a lot of fun.

00:36:17.494 --> 00:36:18.478
We kind of shred.

00:36:19.590 --> 00:36:20.454
That's dope dude.

00:36:20.454 --> 00:36:24.177
The finals are at the end.

00:36:24.177 --> 00:36:24.918
You get the bag.

00:36:24.918 --> 00:36:28.737
Yeah, you're competing for teams of four.

00:36:28.737 --> 00:36:30.494
Is it duos or is it teams of four?

00:36:31.318 --> 00:36:32.079
Teams of three.

00:36:32.079 --> 00:36:34.815
It's four teams of three going against each other.

00:36:37.239 --> 00:36:37.860
That's legit.

00:36:38.440 --> 00:36:52.400
It's a good time, it's um, it's kind of similar into as um call of duty, um, in that you can kind of run around and do a little bit of like spray and pray.

00:36:52.400 --> 00:37:01.393
In that you can kind of run around and do a little bit of like spray and pray, but it does still have like some strategy involved in it if you really want to like go through the tournament so.

00:37:01.414 --> 00:37:07.096
So, like in the in the game, do you feel like you're because you know there's different roles when you're playing comp, like, are you like a flanker?

00:37:07.096 --> 00:37:08.721
Because you have the attitude of a flanker?

00:37:08.721 --> 00:37:09.710
So I'm trying to figure out.

00:37:09.710 --> 00:37:10.853
It's like is that your vibe?

00:37:10.853 --> 00:37:12.996
Um in valorant.

00:37:13.097 --> 00:37:15.641
I'm a flanker in the finals.

00:37:15.641 --> 00:37:19.552
I really do have that big dick energy and it's in valorant.

00:37:19.552 --> 00:37:20.815
It's called the duelist.

00:37:20.815 --> 00:37:34.422
It's the person that makes the first contact, gets in there, gets information and tries to at least get a pick two if they're lucky that's badass, yeah, yeah which one you?

00:37:34.443 --> 00:37:48.434
can get one to two, you can open up the round for your team to win pretty easily because you'll have a numbers advantage even if you get picked off you love playing the meta right, like you're always like, because if I can play the numbers game, I take two what's uh you're?

00:37:48.454 --> 00:37:53.460
they're down to your rest of your teams up, like that's your whole game with that in theory.

00:37:53.581 --> 00:38:01.364
In theory, people throw a lot unintentionally just so we're clear, I might be one of those players.

00:38:01.364 --> 00:38:04.012
Yeah, you know what, like uh, I'm guilty of it too.

00:38:04.012 --> 00:38:06.599
Well, I am such a feeder, like.

00:38:06.599 --> 00:38:11.976
So I always thought that term like back in, like I was playing, lol, like a long time ago, and like they were like I.

00:38:11.976 --> 00:38:22.668
I was like man, I'm going to be a jungler bro, and they were like because you know, the Internet is the Internet, I was going to, I was going to go jungle, and then all I would do is I'd pop out in a lane and just get dumpstered.

00:38:22.688 --> 00:39:08.856
All right, we're going to take a quick break and we'll come right back with Reroll, all right, so we're going to start our reroll segment and on reroll, what we do is we've we've listened to your story and so we have, we've taken notes as we've kind of gone through your story and there are key personality traits, uh, preferred roles that you might take, or game gameplay roles that you might take, favorite genres and worlds, a signature style or vibe about you, and then visual inspiration, and so we're going to take all of those and feed them into a bot and then create a picture of you, and so you get two re-rolls.

00:39:08.856 --> 00:39:09.719
That's the game we're playing.

00:39:09.719 --> 00:39:17.541
You have two re-rolls after the first roll and you can choose to change anything you want about the picture that's created of you.

00:39:17.541 --> 00:39:27.858
But after your second re-roll you'll get a title, a card, and then we'll take that and our designer will turn that into an official gamer tag, trading card.

00:39:28.760 --> 00:39:30.664
Awesome, cool, yeah.

00:39:30.664 --> 00:39:37.030
Question about the re-rolls Is it a full re-roll or is it like I can change an aspect?

00:39:37.652 --> 00:39:39.255
so you can change whatever you want.

00:39:39.255 --> 00:39:40.800
You could change it, you could.

00:39:40.800 --> 00:39:42.670
Well, I should say this differently.

00:39:42.670 --> 00:39:51.878
So we have a set of things that we're going to feed the bot, um, but you could change aesthetically whatever you want to change, does that?

00:39:51.898 --> 00:39:52.280
make sense.

00:39:52.280 --> 00:39:53.222
Yeah.

00:39:55.710 --> 00:40:02.976
Cool, I'm going to share my screen and then Portabella is going to walk through what we have learned about you throughout this interview.

00:40:05.150 --> 00:40:06.094
That'll be interesting.

00:40:07.137 --> 00:40:16.451
So I've been, as we've been talking, I've been writing a little bit down, basically based on vibes, things you have told us about your style and stuff like that.

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None of them bad, obviously.

00:40:17.777 --> 00:40:19.677
They're all good things in my opinion.

00:40:19.677 --> 00:40:21.875
Let's start with personality traits.

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So immediately you seem like the most bubbly, energetic person ever and you talk later about how you really try to spread kindness everywhere you go, and even games and people are not as kind to you, and so that was another big one.

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And then just you have this over like almost like a 180 flip.

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You have this edginess about you that is I don't know how else to explain besides like it.

00:40:50.036 --> 00:40:52.581
It's just a Like.

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I wrote later on that you have like this badass energy.

00:40:54.403 --> 00:40:55.715
It's where it comes from.

00:40:55.715 --> 00:40:59.617
So that's personality traits.

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Preferred roles in gameplay You're kind of like a jack-of-all-trades.

00:41:04.237 --> 00:41:12.277
You're a shooter, you infiltrate, you're flanking, you're a team player, sometimes MVP, depending on how well you're doing for your team.

00:41:12.277 --> 00:41:14.844
That's a way I am.

00:41:14.844 --> 00:41:24.936
So overall I put chameleon because it seems like when we were talking, you kind of shift into the different roles that you're needed in.

00:41:24.936 --> 00:41:33.378
So that was the best way I could combine all of those In terms of your favorite genres, slash worlds in games or anything like that.

00:41:34.583 --> 00:41:44.958
Uh, we have call of duty, prop hunt, valorant, counter-strike and lord the rings, whole things you kind of mentioned throughout while we were talking in terms of signature style or vibe.

00:41:44.958 --> 00:41:50.719
Pink is definitely the the main, the main thing, and some blue, but mainly pink.

00:41:50.719 --> 00:41:53.849
Um, you said your favorite number was three.

00:41:53.849 --> 00:41:55.875
We'll see if it incorporates any of that.

00:41:55.875 --> 00:41:59.110
This is where I wrote down badass energy because you'd have to have it.

00:41:59.110 --> 00:42:05.849
And then the overall like name is just kind of what you're saying when you're late.

00:42:05.849 --> 00:42:14.795
You're a very laid-back person, almost like effort, effortlessly cool, in that way of just like I'm just gonna let the cards fall and see what happens.

00:42:14.795 --> 00:42:18.510
And then, lastly, visual inspiration.

00:42:18.510 --> 00:42:36.052
You kind of envision like this character of Martha being in space, in this Milky Way, ethereal looking, floating aspect and being more of like leaning towards elven styles from lord of the rings, but just in general.

00:42:36.052 --> 00:42:51.224
So that's kind of all the things uh, me and scarto kind of picked up throughout this interview with you hell yeah, y'all flatter me too much badass energy hell yeah, I'm writing that on my.

00:42:51.485 --> 00:42:55.028
I'm getting a tattoo yeah, all right.

00:42:55.048 --> 00:43:00.400
So we're going to now roll the first re-roll and we'll get a picture and see what it looks like.

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Are you ready?

00:43:01.431 --> 00:43:02.474
all right, let's do it.

00:43:02.474 --> 00:43:18.626
I think it's so funny that you put one of my key personality traits is edginess, because I have an inside joke with a friend from like a decade ago where I got like a faux leather jacket at one point and he was like oh, that's kind of nice.

00:43:18.626 --> 00:43:19.690
I was like, yeah, I'm edgy.

00:43:19.690 --> 00:43:28.864
So now every time we talk he's like oh no, I forgot, I'm sorry you're edgy yeah, look at this big, bright background you have.00:43:29.166 --> 00:43:31.532


You have the stars behind you, you have the Milky Way galaxy.00:43:31.532 --> 00:43:35.300


You have a bow in your hand, like you talked about, although there's nothing fletching that arrow.00:43:35.300 --> 00:43:40.938


Um, so this is like the first roll.00:43:40.938 --> 00:43:44.664


Um, she's got blue hair, so maybe we can change that.00:43:44.664 --> 00:43:49.856


You change anything you want about this, um, but you get two re-s.00:43:51.056 --> 00:44:01.153


Okay, okay, I'd like to take away the armor and add a cloak, and I want pink hair.00:44:01.173 --> 00:44:09.641


Okay, I added take away the armor and add a cloak and please make her have pink hair, is there?00:44:09.661 --> 00:44:10.829


anything else you want to add to this picture?00:44:11.731 --> 00:44:12.773


No, I think that's it.00:44:12.773 --> 00:44:15.097


All right, let's see what happens on your next re-roll.00:44:15.097 --> 00:44:16.940


Oh, you have a cloak now.00:44:16.940 --> 00:44:17.822


I kept the three.00:44:21.574 --> 00:44:21.936


This is super cute.00:44:21.936 --> 00:44:33.936


So for our listeners, right now we have a humanoid, elf-looking character with bright pink hair, purple cloak, pink tunic with a three on it and just a bone arrow in space.00:44:33.936 --> 00:44:35.255


That's where we're at right now.00:44:36.630 --> 00:44:38.778


That actually looks so cool.00:44:38.778 --> 00:44:42.440


The only thing I wish looked better was the bow and arrow.00:44:42.440 --> 00:44:46.599


I'm in the middle of it and I only have half of an arrow.00:44:47.121 --> 00:44:47.643


Yeah, that's true.00:44:47.643 --> 00:44:51.373


You have the arrow in the it's already fleshed and you're in the middle of the bow.00:44:51.373 --> 00:44:53.494


You have the arrow in the it's already fleshed and you're in the middle of the bow.00:44:53.494 --> 00:44:54.715


So we, could you know a way to do this?00:44:54.715 --> 00:45:02.541


Might be like I want her to be drawing the arrow and like shooting it at a target, or maybe not.00:45:02.541 --> 00:45:08.786


Maybe that's bad advice, but you get one more reroll and then that will be final.00:45:08.786 --> 00:45:15.445


So, however you want to word this, can word it.00:45:15.465 --> 00:45:16.228


I actually like that.00:45:16.228 --> 00:45:19.396


I think it would be cool if it looked like I was about to shoot the arrow at the camera.00:45:19.396 --> 00:45:32.659


I also love how her smile is so big again it's like this, wide, like cheshire grin on your face so what do you think about that prompt?00:45:32.679 --> 00:45:40.253


So the prompt I wrote was can you make this look like she is aiming the bow and pulling it back like an archer at the camera?00:45:40.976 --> 00:45:42.655


I think it's good, mm-hmm.00:45:43.021 --> 00:45:44.755


Is there anything else you want to change Aesthetically?00:45:44.755 --> 00:45:50.179


You could say, hey, I want to have like magic going on around me or whatever.00:45:52.070 --> 00:45:58.856


Oh no, I was was gonna say I want like a forest tree, like a pine or something behind me or like near me, next to me.00:45:59.458 --> 00:46:08.585


but that's weird because I'm in space well, maybe, maybe there is a tree on this planet where there you go.00:46:08.605 --> 00:46:09.347


That's true.00:46:09.347 --> 00:46:10.048


That's true.00:46:10.048 --> 00:46:15.842


Put me in grass with with like a nice pretty tree behind or near.00:46:16.250 --> 00:46:21.619


I'm going to work on this prompt, so, um, can you tell me, tell me exactly what you'd like me to put in here?00:46:22.451 --> 00:46:29.717


Add grass instead of a dirt road and um some kind of greenery.00:46:30.550 --> 00:46:31.172


What about the bow?00:46:31.172 --> 00:46:31.634


Do you want to?00:46:31.634 --> 00:46:33.940


You want to keep the bow, the blue color, like that?00:46:33.940 --> 00:46:34.039


Yeah.00:46:34.690 --> 00:46:36.036


I like the blow.00:46:36.036 --> 00:46:38.978


The bow looks really cool All right, cool.00:46:39.278 --> 00:46:44.949


So, uh, what I added was um, add grass instead of the dirt and please put trees into the shot.00:46:44.949 --> 00:46:48.416


Also, make the three a led three.00:46:48.416 --> 00:46:54.641


This is your final re-roll, so is there anything else you?00:46:54.661 --> 00:46:55.130


want to change about it.00:46:55.130 --> 00:46:57.757


No, just to remind it to keep the pink hair.00:46:58.630 --> 00:47:01.516


Alright, we're going to keep the pink hair, so please keep the pink hair.00:47:01.516 --> 00:47:02.976


Are you ready to re-roll?00:47:04.070 --> 00:47:04.431


Yup.00:47:05.516 --> 00:47:11.956


Usually, whenever I like talk about LEDs, it's like a real bright color and then it like starts to pop.00:47:11.956 --> 00:47:13.219


Oh, it's so cool.00:47:13.219 --> 00:47:15.356


Oh, this looks freaking dope.00:47:16.070 --> 00:47:17.014


The trees are peeking out.00:47:17.014 --> 00:47:17.918


Yeah, all right.00:47:18.969 --> 00:47:28.115


I'm going to have to make my next Walters gate three character a half elf that looks so good so far.00:47:28.577 --> 00:47:29.521


It's so cool, dude.00:47:32.938 --> 00:47:33.923


What is the three?00:47:33.923 --> 00:47:37.532


Look at the three just glowing away.00:47:37.552 --> 00:47:38.876


I'm not sneaking up on anyone, that's okay.00:47:38.876 --> 00:47:40.820


I mean, you might be, oh dude, that's it that's so cool.00:47:40.820 --> 00:47:44.751


All right, so um your title.00:47:44.751 --> 00:47:46.615


All right, so it's one.00:47:46.615 --> 00:47:47.940


What do you think about this picture?00:47:49.585 --> 00:47:51.148


oh, I love it you love it.00:47:51.148 --> 00:47:55.753


Okay, there's nothing that I would change about it at this point that's freaking awesome.00:47:56.114 --> 00:47:58.219


Um, all right, so your title is star shot silva.00:47:58.219 --> 00:48:00.271


Pink haired elf grows.00:48:00.271 --> 00:48:04.239


Uh sorry, pink haired elf draws a glowing bow deep in the forest.00:48:04.239 --> 00:48:15.938


Led3, blazing, cosmic, cool, locked and loaded hell yeah that's your card, so your title will be the Star Shot Silva, that's freaking dope dude.00:48:16.829 --> 00:48:18.632


That is super cool.00:48:19.617 --> 00:48:20.170


Cool man.00:48:20.170 --> 00:48:20.753


That's awesome.00:48:20.753 --> 00:48:22.673


So thanks for doing Reroll with us.00:48:22.673 --> 00:48:25.277


I hope we got a good representation of like.00:48:25.277 --> 00:48:27.237


This is Martha Maple.00:48:27.570 --> 00:48:27.851


I think.00:48:27.851 --> 00:48:33.152


So I think, yeah, I mean you guys really let me drone on.00:48:33.373 --> 00:48:42.384


so I feel like we didn't miss yeah, never miss, bro, never miss, um, all right.00:48:42.384 --> 00:48:44.349


So, uh, the next 30 seconds are all yours.00:48:44.349 --> 00:48:54.442


Whatever you want to talk about, whatever you want to shout out, like whatever, anything you want to talk about that you're doing or that you want to promote, or whatever, it's all yours.00:48:55.512 --> 00:48:57.269


I don't really have anything to promote.00:48:57.269 --> 00:49:06.416


I think the only thing I would want to say is kindness is free and make sure, whatever space you're in, try and lead with kindness.00:49:06.416 --> 00:49:08.655


It doesn't take anything from you.00:49:09.699 --> 00:49:10.099


I love it.00:49:10.099 --> 00:49:12.052


Kindness is free.00:49:13.596 --> 00:49:15.059


Kindness is free man.00:49:15.599 --> 00:49:16.541


Yeah, man for sure.00:49:21.650 --> 00:49:22.311


Yeah, being kind, people say.00:49:22.311 --> 00:49:27.351


People say that, uh, being hateful is free too, but it's really not, because it takes a toll on like your heart and your soul Totally, whereas kindness just lifts that up.00:49:27.972 --> 00:49:32.418


One, Martha, thank you so much for coming on and like hanging out with us and telling us your story.00:49:32.418 --> 00:49:35.681


We love having you on and we love hanging out.00:49:35.681 --> 00:49:36.402


It was great.00:49:36.402 --> 00:49:38.746


And two, like I love that message.00:49:38.746 --> 00:49:53.179


Like it's all about kindness because, like, especially in the world we live in, on the Internet, it's always easy to like write something to somebody, but like it's cool man, Like the cool thing, is like to be nice and like lead with kindness.00:49:53.179 --> 00:49:55.788


Like you, cool man, Like the cool thing is like to be nice and like lead with kindness.00:49:55.807 --> 00:50:02.902


like you said Exactly, the internet is so anonymous, but at the same time, it's really not because you carry that stuff with you.00:50:02.902 --> 00:50:03.784


You know what you've said.00:50:03.784 --> 00:50:05.715


I know what I said 10 years ago, you know.00:50:06.117 --> 00:50:07.380


Yeah Well, cool.00:50:07.380 --> 00:50:10.416


Well, that's going to do it for this episode of Gamertagged.00:50:10.416 --> 00:50:13.202


Martha, thank you so much for coming on and hanging out with us.00:50:13.202 --> 00:50:16.177


We super appreciated it.00:50:21.137 --> 00:50:23.322


Portabellas anything else you'd like to say Not really.00:50:23.322 --> 00:50:24.505


Thanks for listening Cool.00:50:24.804 --> 00:50:25.666


Thanks for having me guys.00:50:25.666 --> 00:50:27.653


So thank you for joining us.00:50:27.653 --> 00:50:28.235


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