Aug. 28, 2025

MalBread: Cozy Rebellion in a Digital Bakery | Online Identity & Gamer Culture

MalBread: Cozy Rebellion in a Digital Bakery | Online Identity & Gamer Culture

What if your truest self only shows up when you hit “Go Live”? For MalBread, the stream isn’t a performance—it’s a break from one. In a world that demanded discipline, structure, and silence, she found joy in chaos, warmth in gaming, and freedom in her digital persona. Born from a blend of languages and layered meanings, her gamertag became more than a name—it became a safehouse of softness, community, and garlic bread. We Talk: Growing up under pressure and escaping into gamesThe emotional a...

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Season 1

What if your truest self only shows up when you hit “Go Live”?

For MalBread, the stream isn’t a performance—it’s a break from one. In a world that demanded discipline, structure, and silence, she found joy in chaos, warmth in gaming, and freedom in her digital persona. Born from a blend of languages and layered meanings, her gamertag became more than a name—it became a safehouse of softness, community, and garlic bread.

We Talk:

  • Growing up under pressure and escaping into games
  • The emotional architecture of her gamertag, MalBread
  • Streaming as authentic self-expression
  • The cozy/horror duality of her content style
  • Parasocial boundaries, empathy, and building community “like a bakery”
  • Why softness can be radical in gamer culture

🃏 And in the ReRoll…
We bake up a dreamy digital representation of MalBread: The Midnight Baker—in floral pajamas, a cozy garlic bread bakery, a shadow at the window, and Toasty—her iconic, egg-topped mascot—perched beside her. 

Guest: MalBread
Hosts: Scarto46, Marthah Maple, Ryanocerus
Produced by: Gamertagged Studios

🎧 MalBread:

Gaming Channel – https://www.youtube.com/@MalBreadVODs
TikTok – https://www.tiktok.com/@malbread_
Twitch – https://www.twitch.tv/malbread
X – https://x.com/malbread_

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In this episode, we’re taking a moment to spotlight Take This, a nonprofit at the intersection of mental health and gaming. From AFK Rooms at conventions to their Accelerate mentorship program, they’re building safer, more human spaces for players and creators alike. Learn more or support their work at TakeThis.org.

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Meet the Crew
Scarto46 – Host & founder. Game dev, storyteller, identity nerd. Architect of the ReRoll.
Ryanocerus – Cohost & composer. Chaos generator with a lo-fi heart.
Portabella – Producer & editor. Emotional compass of the pod.
Sue-She – Art director. Turns identities into cards and vision.
Marthah Maple – Guest & partnerships lead. Builds the bridge between story and studio.

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00:00 - Enter the Bakery: Who Is MalBread?

02:11 - Childhood Discipline, Digital Freedom

05:01 - Building Imaginary Worlds as a Digital Kid

08:42 - Fashion, Tumblr, and Quiet Rebellion

13:15 - Branding Before Streaming: The Bread Was Baked

16:48 - Why “MalBread”

20:01 - Building the Bakery on Twitch

23:20 - Boundaries, Burnout, and Being Human

28:57 - Horror Meets Cozy: Streaming with ADHD

47:08 - Don’t Wait to Be Happy

50:49 - 🃏ReRoll: The Midnight Baker

01:04:30 - Mal's Message: Be Selfish. Be Kind.

01:06:30 - Closing and Credits

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I want everything to feel genuine.

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And I, because I feel like in real life, like the real me is constantly performing.

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I'm constantly being a version of myself that is not authentic.

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And I don't feel any joy being that.

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And I feel like I'm constantly following a script.

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So streaming is my form of relaxing and being my genuine, authentic self.

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We'll be right back.

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carved out her joy and secret, and emerged with something bigger than a stream.

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She built a world, a cozy bakery of digital belonging where anyone can be a loaf, even the moldy ones.

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Mal isn't just playing games.

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She's reclaiming space, choosing softness, and creating the kind of internet she never got growing up.

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So settle in.

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Here's our conversation with the one and only MalBread.

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Hey Mal, thanks for joining us tonight.

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Thank you.

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Yeah, for sure.

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Also on the show tonight, Marthah Maple is here.

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Hi.

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And Ryanocerus.

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Hi.

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I think Marthah was ready to be called out like that.

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It was pretty good.

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That was the Kirby high wave.

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It was pretty solid.

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I even waved IRL just in case anybody needed a visual.

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It's a video podcast now.

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No,

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cool.

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Mal, for real, though, thanks for joining us.

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We're super excited to do this show with you tonight.

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Oh, well, thank you for having me.

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My first ever podcast, and I am so glad that I will be spending the next hour with cool people, interesting people like you.

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You guys have interesting personalities and hobbies, so...

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Along with my podcast, I hope I get to know you guys more, too, because I love meeting new people, interesting people, especially.

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So, yeah.

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Yeah, for sure.

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Same here.

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I think it's interesting you think we're all, like, wildly different.

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Do you feel like, like, talking to us so far, do you feel like we're wildly different people?

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I know that Ryan is, like, more of a quiet type.

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I know once you get to know him, I know he's going to be a whole different person.

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Yeah,

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he's pretty funny.

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I'm a natural listener.

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So I have to like force myself to interject at times because I just want to listen to people talk.

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Oh, okay.

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Yeah, it makes sense.

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And like Marthah, you have, I feel like you're very eccentric, but like in a very fun and interesting way.

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And, you know, we were talking about books and you love collecting them and decorating your space with them.

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So I can already like picture you like in front of me and we're just fangirling over anything and everything.

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I love your energy already.

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And like Skardo, you seem to love your family a lot and you talk, you've mentioned your daughter very often and I can like clearly picture you as a very fun partner but also a very loving and caring dad.

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So yeah, this is all from the top of my head from the few minutes we've talked, so.

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Yeah.

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Well, you nailed it, bud.

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Except I think that the three of us are also really chaotic, wild, and fun human beings sometimes, potentially.

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Yeah.

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It's got to be the best show.

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Hey, let's talk about...

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So I want to start not with your tag, which is MalBread, but with you.

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So what brought you into the world of games or digital spaces?

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What got you interested in being on the internet, making content, playing games?

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And like, were they always part of your story or did they show up later in your life?

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Like, how did that whole story happen?

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I've noticed.

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Okay, so I have like very strict Asian parents.

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So they were constantly telling my siblings and I, okay, you got to study.

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You have to think about which university you're going to go to and then like get a good job.

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And like everything, almost everything was controlled in my life.

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So I kind of lost a huge chunk of my personality so that I can put everything all my eggs in one basket close all my other tabs and just like concentrate on just one tab and just perfect that but I felt so suffocated while I was in high school college and you know university And I really missed the fun and eccentric kid that I was growing up because I was always playing outside.

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When I was indoors, I would play a lot of video games.

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So, and the type of games.

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Growing up, we were also poor.

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So we didn't really have cable TV or really access to any video game consoles or anything.

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So when we would, my siblings and I, when we would go to school, We would see other kids talking about TV shows that we had no idea what they were.

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We did have access to a PC growing up because my dad studied in computer science.

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So we always had a computer in any shape or form at home.

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So we would play the games themed after the shows that the kids at school were talking about.

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So we would, my siblings and I, we would often be on Cartoon Network, like all the games that Cartoon Network would make related to all the shows like Kids Next Door, like I said, Samurai Jack and The Grimm Adventures and all that.

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And we would imagine that we are watching the shows and getting to know the characters as we would play the game.

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So that's where we really, like I really got into gaming because it felt like I was watching a story and I was contributing to the story.

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And during the pandemic, that's when I was like, you know what?

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Right.

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Right.

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that I'm doing to make my brain happy.

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I'm just thinking about what I need to do in two years, in five years.

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But right now, I'm never having fun in the present.

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So I'm like, you know what?

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I'm going to go back to gaming.

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Dude, I

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felt so seen by your story.

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Because I mean, when I was growing up, it was very similar.

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We didn't have any money.

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And it wasn't the first time that I got a computer.

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I had to build it.

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And I built it with parts from the hospital that my grandma worked at.

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And so I've like, you're talking about like going through and trying to relate to people in class or whatever, because you were playing games on, on Cartoon Network and like creating your own episodes and like getting to know the characters.

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Like, I think that's so cool.

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Cause it was like that for me.

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I mean, you know, I think for a lot of people, you know, you kind of start playing games and like, it becomes a way that you try to engage and like learn social skills or even just create, like you, you mentioned, like you were creating the stories about those characters for yourself.

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Like, I don't know, that's pretty beautiful that that's where you started.

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It was fun.

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I really missed that creative side of myself.

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Also, when this is like peak pandemic, and I was like, okay, I love creating.

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I love being exposed to content and media.

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And also managing, because something I noticed when I started streaming is you're not only making content, you have to take all your streams and you have to make little clips out of them.

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And all the story times that I would do, I would edit little videos and post them on other social medias to bring people from other places to my Twitch channel.

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And it's a lot of time and it's a lot of management.

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I also missed that part of myself.

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I grew up as the oldest sibling, the oldest kid in an immigrant household.

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So I was kind of the manager and the psychologist of my family members and my parents.

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So I had to think about multiple things at once.

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So I noticed that.

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So I put it to use when I got into content creation.

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So when you were growing up, you know, like going through this part of your life, how would you describe the digital kid you were growing up?

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Were you trying to engage and be socially engaging or were you just trying to play and trying to find an outlet for that?

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How would you describe that kind of kid you were back then?

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Oh,

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okay.

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I did talk a bit about my earlier, let's say under 10-year-old Mel.

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I did talk about it a little bit.

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If I want to talk about my teenage self, the period where I was the least...

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my authentic self, I would still express myself on the internet by going on Tumblr.

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I used to have like this huge Tumblr page and I would talk about, I would share posts about anime and fashion in Japan and people would interact with my posts and I was like, oh my gosh, I'm expressing myself.

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And I really enjoyed that period in my life because it was the only time during my day where I could interact with other people other than people at school and who only talk about, you know, homework.

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I went to a private school, so it was study, study, study, study, study.

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I really didn't have a social life while I was in school.

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Like, yes, I was one of the popular kids.

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Why?

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Because I had good grades.

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But other than that, it was so boring.

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So that's why I was glad to have the internet and access to it to express myself.

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The side that I couldn't when I was trying to be a serious teenager or, like, a young adult and have good grades.

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Do you feel like that, like, it was almost like a quiet rebellion?

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Like, you were taught to be very structured and disciplined and manage these things, but you had this other part of you that you were, that was pulling on you, right?

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Like, so...

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Oh, yeah.

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Hell, yeah.

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It was my way of, like, low-key rebelling because I don't think my parents knew I had a Tumblr.

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And...

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You know, it was for Asian parents.

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So they were like, OK, don't talk to boys.

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And, oh, don't watch this.

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Don't say that.

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But like I was the I was literally another person on the Internet and I was talking about fashion.

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At one point I would get sponsorships from.

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fashion sites and they would be like oh we're gonna we're gonna send you five to six items and we would love for you to review them so wear them take photos and review them so that your audience can you know come to our site and stuff like that and I would do that behind my parents back and my mom would be like why are you taking photos of yourself I'm like oh I'm just testing the camera we haven't used it so like I don't know it's kind of glitchy But like I would take photos, you know, I was secretly taking photos and then posting it online and like writing reviews and stuff like that.

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But anyways, a whole different life.

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Do you feel like that time, like, did you feel like you had the emotional maturity to manage like the feedback you were getting from the internet?

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Like, cause I think that's hard, right?

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When you're in your formative years and you're like expressing this part of yourself as maybe more vulnerable and more open and you're starting to get feedback from other humans that you don't know on some random place that are anonymous.

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Like, Do you feel like that affected you in like a positive way or like in a negative way?

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I

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don't think it affected me at all because if I got like...

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It was mostly positive because it was more of a wholesome community that I was in because we would talk about cute anime and cute anime girls and then we would talk about Japan and beautiful scenery and then like pretty fashion and stuff like that.

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So even if I did get negative comments or anything, I would be more like, oh, they're probably having...

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a hard day or like, oh, they must have a rough life.

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Like I'm, I'm like very stupidly empathetic.

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So if somebody is mean to me, the first thought would be like, oh, they're probably having a bad day or like maybe I offended them in some way instead of the first thing being, oh my gosh, I feel, I feel so sad.

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I feel so offended and blah, blah, blah.

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And so I guess it's my way of coping and also being the oldest sibling I had to put aside my emotions to be the mature person in the room.

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Well, I think that's beautiful.

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I think it's a, I don't know, growing for me, it's a behavior I had to learn that like I wasn't the problem in a lot of those type of situations.

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And then it's probably just my upbringing, which was similar but different than yours.

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And I, it's something as a parent, I've thought about a lot, right?

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So when my daughter started like posting on Instagram, her art and I was like, okay, when you post art and you're making things, the thing that I think about as a parent is like, well, where I grew up, the internet was much smaller.

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Communities weren't as vibrant or as protective as they are today.

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And the other part about that is, is like knowing her and being like, yep, cool.

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She's tough.

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She'll figure it out.

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But like, you know, it's a thought, right?

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Cause I think.

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Growing up around the Internet or on the Internet like I did, I was like, you know, you never really know what kind of feedback you're going to get.

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So I think it's cool that you find a community where you fit.

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Yeah, I was glad that I found a positive community to start my Internet journey with because I've heard some pretty rough things from my other Internet friends.

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And, you know, they were more exposed online.

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with uh more mature people gladly the the type of community that i was in it was mostly like teenage girls and just talking about pretty things and stuff like that so it was more positive because i really wanted to cope from my depressive real life uh situations and you know school so i would purposely think about the opposite and yeah be more positive and uh be surrounded by happy things and happy thoughts.

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That's beautiful, Mal, for real.

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I think it's really cool that you were able to find a place like that where you fit in so early.

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Yeah, I'm happy.

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Good memories.

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Yeah, it sounds like you kind of really found yourself a bit once you were able to get into the Tumblrs and get into that internet space.

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I'm wondering, how did streaming begin for you?

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How did you move from Tumblr into you know saying oh I want to stream I know you mentioned the pandemic kind of catalyst of that for you but like what was the what was was there a driving factor was it a bunch of little things

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okay when I was thinking of streaming it was a spontaneous idea I never watched anybody stream before and I didn't even know that was a thing I knew that people would post like gameplay content like you know Markiplier or like PewDiePie they would like film themselves play the game and they would post it on YouTube but like in my head I never had the concept of like live streaming and I'm like who would I would I was so confused like who would want to like sit down and watch somebody struggle over a game and then I would think about the difference between live streams and YouTube YouTube you can polish your content and you can if you have awkward pauses or if you're like miscommunicating you can just edit it out and have all the best moments out there and people watch the polished version of you and the content you're posting.

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But when it's live, you're like, you could make mistakes.

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You can be awkward.

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You can have awkward pauses.

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So like who would watch that?

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But no, it's really the human interaction part of it that really brought me in.

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And I'm like, I was really craving that social community connection thing that people always humans always crave or animals in general always crave so I was like okay let me look into streaming and then I started brainstorming so hard that it took me like around a month of me creating my labels and creating my little like logos and stuff like that and like in the span of one month I started streaming and I was like this looks fun let's do it and I'm the I have ADHD I'm super ADHD so I have like multiple hobbies that I love to do At the same time, or I love to start new hobbies.

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So I was like, okay, this is my new hobby.

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I'm going to start it.

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And I started it and I haven't looked back since.

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And I'm glad that I did because I've got to meet so many interesting people, so many nice people, weird people, for sure.

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I

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love that you launched with like, you're like, I have to have a logo and I have to have a brand ready.

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I can't just...

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I think that there's kind of two sides to that coin when people decide that they want to stream.

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It's like, I'm just going to do it.

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And then there's the people that are like you trying to build that brand.

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So you're launching with a platform almost.

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Were you always MalBread when you started streaming or did that come later?

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Yeah, that was always my gamer tag because...

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Okay, I can explain it now if you guys want why my name is Malbret.

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I mean, it's a super layered name and I'm sure it has a really deep meaning to you.

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Yes, it does.

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You kind of maybe notice that I have an accent when I speak.

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I am multilingual.

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But one of the two main languages that I speak when I go out is English and French because I live in the French part of Canada.

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And so I like to mix languages.

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different parts of my life into things that I create or things that represent me.

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So Mal is part of my real name.

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And everybody at school, my real name, which I don't share on the internet is, I don't know why it's very hard to pronounce for French speakers because there's an H in it.

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And French people don't usually say the H letter.

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It's silent most of the time.

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So I'm like, you know what?

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Just call me Mal.

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It's easy.

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You can't butcher a three-letter word.

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So everybody calls me Mal.

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And then I'm like, I feel like Mal is too short of a username.

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So what can I do?

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And then I started thinking, okay, Mal.

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In French, when you say, oh, I'm in pain, we say, oh, j'ai mal.

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J'ai mal.

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And Mal means pain.

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So pain, P-A-I-N, the same word in French is paine.

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which is bread.

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So it kind of made that weird connection.

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I'm like, okay, there we go.

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This makes sense.

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Let's slap those together.

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And voila, you got my username that I've been using for, yeah, for a long time now.

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So it's the same username that I use on my Steam, on my Instagram.

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And yeah, there it is.

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I also love the fact that there's the bread theme in my like bakery theme in all the things that I create.

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Because I don't know, when you think about a fresh loaf of bread, what do you, how, what do you feel?

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You feel cozy.

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You feel comfort.

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You feel like, oh, I can relax.

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Oh, this is, this is going to feel my belly.

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I'm going to, I'm going to smell nice things.

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So yeah, this is also the energy that I wanted to give off to people that, hey, if you're with me, my name is MalBread.

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I want to give off a, a nice comfort vibe.

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while you're with me, spending time with me.

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So yeah.

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Like a nice cafe.

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Yeah, I love that.

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Have you streamed any of like the cooking mamas or those cooking games where you do baking?

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I'm just curious.

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Thank you for giving me this awesome idea.

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I think I'm going to have to start doing that.

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Oh my God.

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That

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one is free.

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Okay.

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So a lot of people ask me to do baking streams.

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Like, oh,

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you have to bake.

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Oh, like actual baking.

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IRL baking.

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IRL baking.

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Yes.

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So I'm like, oh yeah, I love muffins.

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I love cake and I love fresh bread.

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So I'm like, you know what?

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That is actually a good idea.

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So I just have to think of bringing my PC to my kitchen and let us think of a temporary setup so I can like film myself streaming and also baking.

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I don't know.

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It looks like a fun idea.

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Oh,

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that'd be awesome.

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I wouldn't know my house.

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Crazy stuff with sourdough.

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Oh, girl.

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I love powers.

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Well, that's

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what I was going to ask.

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What's your favorite bread?

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If you had to pick a bread forever.

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And it's such a hard question.

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No, that is

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such a hard question.

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Oh, my gosh.

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One bread forever.

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What bread?

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I love garlic and I love garlic bread.

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Oh, with a good amount of butter.

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going

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after a super like flavorful bread too.

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Like you can't, I love, I know.

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I love it.

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I was trying to think, I'm like, what, what is the most, what is the most basic bread that I can do a bunch of different things with?

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I want, yeah.

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Do I want like cinnamon toast?

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No, I want garlic toast, like something that I can do both on.

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Cause I would say ciabatta, but I don't know if I could do cinnamon toast on, I mean, I could, but I don't know how good it would be.

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Good idea.

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Garlic bread though.

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Just going for it.

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I like that.

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Wait, I'm curious though.

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Okay, so if you like garlic bread, how do you like it?

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Do you like the Texas toast?

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Do you like the baguette?

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Do you like the garlic knots?

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What's your vibe?

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Is it all of them?

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Is it none of those?

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Oh, the way that I make garlic bread is with my mom and she always bakes our bread at home.

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So we never buy bread.

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in our household.

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Even if I moved out, my mom still sends me bread.

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She's like, don't buy bread.

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This is like, I use healthy, like a fresh and natural flour.

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And like, if you buy bread, bread is like super expensive.

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I'm going to send you bread.

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That way it's cheaper.

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You're going to save on groceries.

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So anyways.

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So sweet.

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Yeah.

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So my mom...

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Whenever I go visit her, she's always baking.

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She's always cooking.

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And sometimes I'm like, you know what?

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I am craving garlic and I'm craving carbs.

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Let's make a garlic bread.

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So she makes this huge loaf with so many grains in them.

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So like poppy seed, sesame seed.

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There's like, oh, so a thousand more other like seeds.

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And then we take that, we slice it, and then we make our own garlic butter.

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She makes ghee at home.

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Oh,

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damn.

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Yeah.

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I

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feel like she's still young at heart and all of her kids kind of like moved out for college and work and stuff.

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So she's like, I don't know what to do.

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There's this old annoying man who lives with me who's always like nagging me to like make food for him, a.k.a.

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her husband.

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And she's like, I just want my kids back.

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I want to make fun recipes for my kids, not for an old man.

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Because if I feed this man too much butter, he's going to die.

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So she loves it when her kids come visit her.

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She's like, oh, I could make like my fun peas.

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All right, Mal, what is your favorite thing to cook?

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If we all showed up tonight at your house right now.

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If you were there, what would you be cooking for us?

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Oh, oh, my gosh.

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I love potatoes.

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Oh, my gosh.

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You got two Irish boys

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in there.

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I

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love potatoes.

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So any dish with potatoes in them, count me in.

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And something that I've been obsessed with recently is Japanese curry.

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So yeah, if I was having you guys over and I know you would be over in like an hour or two, that will give me enough time to prep all the ingredients and have the hot meal ready for you guys and sided with either some sushi rice or...

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bread.

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That is exactly what I would be cooking for you guys if you guys were coming over.

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Mal,

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did you have any gamer tags before MalBread?

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Like when, you know, back in that early formative part of your life?

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Or has it always been MalBread?

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Oh, during my Tumblr era, I had another username, which I don't use anymore.

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I loved it because I would talk a lot about Japanese culture and anime especially.

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So it kind of made sense that I had a Japanese-ish username back then.

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To MalBread now, is there something about your gamertag you've always wanted to share?

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Yeah, Bred.

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I went with Bred, like I said, because I want to give off a comforting aura when people come over or when people from the internet meet me.

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So yeah, that's the aura that the energy that I was going after when I picked malt bread.

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And

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your logo, that's a corgi bread loaf, right?

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Yeah.

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Somebody from my community was like, I got like this Discord discounted thing and I have this leftover little icon I can give to you.

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It's like bread related.

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So it matches with your username.

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I'm like, oh, that's super sweet of you.

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And then like she gifted it to me.

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So that's why I have it.

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Usually my icon is naked, but Now he's wearing a cute little corgi bread hat.

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For our audio listeners who can't see this, it's like a cartoon version of Mal holding a piece of bread that has MB burned into the toast, and then it's a frame that is a loaf of bread with corgi ears and a little nose, eyes, and mouth, and then a little bow tie, too.

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It's adorable.

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Mal, you close all your videos with

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that.

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Everything you do, you close with that logo, right?

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Yes, that is the first thing that I started drawing when I wanted to start streaming.

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I was like, okay, I'm not going to stop my face everywhere because some people might not find me interesting to look at, but I'm going to draw a cute chibi version of myself.

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It's an old drawing of me.

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I have slightly improved since then, but I like to keep my traces of parts of me from the past.

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So yeah, that is one of the first things that I started drawing when my idea of streaming started blooming in my head.

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I was like, okay, I'm going to need a logo.

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I'm going to need like an image.

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And then I'm going to need like bakery themed things I can use for my community.

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So people will remember me because when I started researching ideas for streaming and I was getting to know the community and what it actually is, because I don't like half-assing things.

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I'm like, if I do something, I'm going to do it properly.

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And people were telling new streamers, hey, how can you stand out?

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What can you do to make you remember?

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What can you do to bring people back?

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And having a catchy username, having something, a little something on your screen or in your phrasing or how you talk can make you remember.

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memorable.

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So people will come back and keep interacting with you.

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Yeah.

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Hence why I have a mascot for my channel called Toasty, who is a chunky piece of bread with a sunny side up egg on his head.

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And, you know, he's just, he just looks cute and he's just fluffy.

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And yeah, just that that's his job.

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Only job looking cute and fluffy.

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Yeah.

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And he's super cute.

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I was just going to ask.

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So when someone shows up in your stream the first time, like what is the thing that you hope that they take away or they feel?

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Okay.

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Because you thought a lot about this, right?

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Even what you wanted it to be.

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And I bet you had this idea in mind of like, this is what I hope someone feels.

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Because you mentioned the cafe earlier, right?

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And fresh bread and that vibe.

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But what is the thing you hope they take away when they walk away from your stream?

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Okay, I'm going to start off by saying what I love to say whenever somebody new follows me on my stream.

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It's always, hello, welcome to the bakery.

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You are now officially a loaf.

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You can be any bread you want.

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And then I start listing off everything.

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random pastries and types of bread that they can choose to be.

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So I say you can be a blueberry muffin.

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You can be an everything seasoning bagel.

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You can be plain old white bread.

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You can be a baguette, a tortilla, a burger bun.

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So it's kind of my way of saying, hey, you can be anything you want.

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Be a part of the community.

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See this place as a cozy little bakery where everybody here is either a baker.

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Like my subscribers are bakers, the ones who like pay a monthly fee to be part of the community.

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Those are bakers who help me around the bakery to make all the croissants and all the pies.

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And if somebody loves cinnamon rolls, they're like, okay, I'm going to give you cinnamon rolls.

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You're going to make all the cinnamon rolls or like, oh, the other person loves red velvet cake.

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I'm like, OK, I'm going to give you I'm going to I'm going to make you bake all the hypothetically, of course, all the red themed pastries in our bakery for the month.

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So I like to make people participate.

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in the weird imagery we have, I have in my head of the community.

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And I guess people love it.

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And they're like, yay, when they subscribe or when they bring friends over, they're like, friends to the bakery.

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And then the newcomers are like, oh, I've been craving banana bread a lot recently.

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So they're like, I want to be a banana bread.

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Or like, I want to be some edgy kids.

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They come over, they want to be like, oh, I want to be moldy bread.

00:30:54.017 --> 00:30:55.999
I'm like, oh, really?

00:30:55.999 --> 00:30:57.721
What color does your mold have?

00:30:57.721 --> 00:30:59.803
Is it more like the greenish kind?

00:30:59.803 --> 00:31:00.864
Is it the fuzzy kind?

00:31:00.864 --> 00:31:02.026
Is it the black kind?

00:31:02.026 --> 00:31:02.746
The black is not.

00:31:02.746 --> 00:31:05.529
And then I start talking about mold for like five minutes.

00:31:05.529 --> 00:31:10.075
And anyways, so that's the energy I like to give off for the community.

00:31:10.075 --> 00:31:12.176
Cozy vibes, sense of community.

00:31:12.176 --> 00:31:12.217
I

00:31:12.778 --> 00:31:14.098
want to be the moldy bread.

00:31:14.138 --> 00:31:19.244
You're the moldy bread in my eyes, Ryan.

00:31:19.244 --> 00:31:21.166
I've

00:31:21.207 --> 00:31:22.969
always wanted to hear somebody say that.

00:31:22.969 --> 00:31:32.765
Mal, you're known for Doing expressive first-play style streams, how do you approach those games emotionally?

00:31:32.765 --> 00:31:34.449
Are you prepping before you go in?

00:31:34.449 --> 00:31:35.491
Are you going in raw?

00:31:35.491 --> 00:31:37.056
Is it something kind of in between?

00:31:37.056 --> 00:31:37.116
Oh,

00:31:39.343 --> 00:31:39.683
okay.

00:31:39.683 --> 00:31:41.930
I hate being spoiled.

00:31:41.930 --> 00:31:53.010
So I love to stay off the internet or I try not to see content related to either the movie or the game that I will be experiencing.

00:31:53.010 --> 00:31:57.916
So I love to experience things raw for the first time.

00:31:57.916 --> 00:32:05.345
That's why I mainly do first playthroughs on my channel, because if there are jump scares, I don't want to know if there are jump scares.

00:32:05.345 --> 00:32:08.890
And if I get jump scared, well, you're going to see me shoot my pants on stream.

00:32:08.890 --> 00:32:12.651
So like I want everything to feel genuine.

00:32:12.651 --> 00:32:18.740
And I because I feel like in real life, like the real me is constantly performing.

00:32:18.740 --> 00:32:23.768
I'm constantly being a version of myself that is not authentic.

00:32:23.768 --> 00:32:26.492
And I don't feel any joy being that.

00:32:26.492 --> 00:32:28.675
And I feel like I'm constantly following a script.

00:32:28.675 --> 00:32:34.885
So streaming is my form of relaxing and being my genuine, authentic self.

00:32:34.885 --> 00:32:39.406
So if I'm playing a game, I will play a game that I find interesting.

00:32:39.406 --> 00:32:46.095
If I want to experience it for the first time, I'm going to act in the way that I genuinely am feeling on the inside.

00:32:46.095 --> 00:32:51.922
So yes, that's why I play first playthroughs mostly on my streams.

00:32:52.502 --> 00:32:53.703
I think that resonates with us, though.

00:32:53.703 --> 00:33:04.758
I mean, you know, for us, like, again, we in real life like that, and maybe this is for everyone, but in real life, like we have an expectation of who we have to be or the jobs or the roles or the things we have to do.

00:33:04.758 --> 00:33:11.740
And then being able to be truly authentically yourself kind of happens on behind this gamer tag that you have, right?

00:33:11.740 --> 00:33:16.467
So I think that resonates totally with the three of us and probably with lots of people.

00:33:17.048 --> 00:33:18.210
Oh, yeah, definitely.

00:33:18.210 --> 00:33:25.882
When I post content on my YouTube or Instagram, I do get hate comments, obviously.

00:33:25.882 --> 00:33:30.568
But I understand it's coming from people who feel trapped.

00:33:30.568 --> 00:33:32.124
Yeah.

00:33:32.124 --> 00:33:35.392
Mm-hmm.

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Mm-hmm.

00:33:41.867 --> 00:33:49.858
when I get old.

00:33:49.858 --> 00:33:55.690
Oh my gosh, I don't want wrinkles because of all the hatred I have bubbling inside.

00:33:55.690 --> 00:33:56.692
No, I want to be jolly.

00:33:56.692 --> 00:33:57.472
I want to be happy.

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And if I have wrinkles, I want them to be smile lines.

00:34:00.057 --> 00:34:01.560
I want them to be happy wrinkles.

00:34:01.560 --> 00:34:03.904
So yeah, that's how I see it.

00:34:05.027 --> 00:34:10.516
Yeah, you have a real range in your content, you know, horror games, Soulsborne, Cozy Chaos.

00:34:10.516 --> 00:34:15.242
Do these genres speak to different parts of you as you're playing them?

00:34:15.242 --> 00:34:20.168
Are there specific characters or archetypes that you feel reflected within those games?

00:34:21.130 --> 00:34:22.831
Oh my gosh, I love this question.

00:34:22.831 --> 00:34:37.250
Okay, so I don't know if I mentioned this during the podcast, but we were talking about this before we started recording, but my brain is weird and my brain is annoyingly addicted to multitasking.

00:34:37.250 --> 00:35:17.561
So I have multiple tabs open on my in my brain and there's this one tab watching a cutesy anime and the other tab has a youtube video open related to a horror show that i'm i am currently that i just finished watching with my brother and i have another tab that's like related to i don't know a horror game that recently came out and i'm watching the trailer to it so Yeah, it's one of the reasons why I am a variety streamer, because I don't want to put myself in a mold, which is exactly what I did growing up.

00:35:17.561 --> 00:35:25.329
And I was forced to do because of my upbringing is close all the other tabs, just have one tab open and just concentrate on that.

00:35:25.329 --> 00:35:25.811
I'm like, what?

00:35:25.811 --> 00:35:27.373
Don't want to think about that.

00:35:27.373 --> 00:35:30.217
Like this week, what if I want to do another thing?

00:35:30.217 --> 00:35:33.860
And then I come back to it for a few hours and I go to go do something else.

00:35:33.860 --> 00:35:37.726
And I like to have this freedom of choice.

00:35:37.726 --> 00:35:40.458
choosing according to my mood.

00:35:40.458 --> 00:35:47.875
So one day, like I try to stream three to four times a week and each day I end up playing a different game.

00:35:47.875 --> 00:35:53.427
So one of the funny things that I've been doing recently is playing a dating sim.

00:35:53.427 --> 00:35:56.472
That's a game that came out recently called Date Everything.

00:35:56.472 --> 00:35:59.898
And I usually don't play dating sims, but it got gifted to me.

00:35:59.898 --> 00:36:02.541
So Mondays are dating sim nights.

00:36:02.541 --> 00:36:05.804
And then Wednesdays, I play a horror game.

00:36:05.804 --> 00:36:09.068
And then we do community nights another day.

00:36:09.068 --> 00:36:11.072
And I play Dead by Daylight another day.

00:36:11.072 --> 00:36:18.420
So it's really, I'm giving, letting myself have the option to enjoy everything as much as I can.

00:36:18.420 --> 00:36:23.166
Because, you know, being anchored to just one thing is too suffocating and boring.

00:36:23.166 --> 00:36:23.987
Yeah, it's not right.

00:36:24.347 --> 00:36:25.289
I was going to ask you, Mal.

00:36:25.289 --> 00:36:25.750
So like...

00:36:25.750 --> 00:36:30.581
What's your relationship with your like persona today with MalBreads?

00:36:30.581 --> 00:36:34.224
I mean, you just described how you're in so many different places all at the same time.

00:36:34.224 --> 00:36:42.193
You've described why you're a variety streamer and because you love to engage in all these places and you don't want to be confined to a certain area or a certain topic.

00:36:42.193 --> 00:36:47.378
But do you think of MalBread as like a mirror of who you are?

00:36:47.378 --> 00:36:53.485
Like when you look at MalBread as like the persona you have, is that a mirror of you or is this something else entirely?

00:36:55.427 --> 00:36:55.708
Ooh, okay.

00:36:55.708 --> 00:36:57.070
Another great question.

00:36:57.070 --> 00:37:05.525
You could say I am a completely different person from what outsiders see me as.

00:37:05.525 --> 00:37:07.929
My closet, you should see my closet, by the way.

00:37:07.929 --> 00:37:16.621
It's like black t-shirts, dark red, maroon, and gray, white clothes.

00:37:16.621 --> 00:37:24.514
Things that I wear to the office or to school and to appear more serious and mature.

00:37:24.514 --> 00:37:31.746
But then the PJs, The pajamas that I wear at home, as soon as I come home, I just change into my pajamas.

00:37:31.746 --> 00:37:34.811
You know, I feel more like myself and also I feel like more clean.

00:37:34.811 --> 00:37:37.333
They're all multicolored.

00:37:37.333 --> 00:37:38.996
There's a lot of floral.

00:37:38.996 --> 00:37:42.800
There's a lot of pink, blues, purple, pastel colors.

00:37:42.800 --> 00:37:44.461
And all of them are made by my mom.

00:37:44.461 --> 00:37:46.123
Shout out to my mom again.

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She sews.

00:37:48.246 --> 00:37:49.548
She sews a lot.

00:37:49.548 --> 00:37:53.333
She sews a lot of pajamas for me.

00:37:53.333 --> 00:37:57.297
And those are the, most of the time, those are the outfits that I wear when I'm streaming.

00:37:57.297 --> 00:38:08.637
So I feel more nice and bubbly when I am indoors and at home and not really myself and more of a mature shell of myself when I'm.

00:38:08.958 --> 00:38:13.664
So you feel like Malbret is and the persona you are like, that's really you.

00:38:13.664 --> 00:38:16.489
But when you're outside, you're who you have to be.

00:38:16.509 --> 00:38:18.010
Exactly.

00:38:18.010 --> 00:38:20.074
OK, you worded it perfectly.

00:38:20.074 --> 00:38:20.594
Yeah,

00:38:20.994 --> 00:38:21.376
I get that.

00:38:21.376 --> 00:38:25.862
I mean, I think that I'm the most authentic version of myself when I'm here.

00:38:25.862 --> 00:38:28.771
So I totally understand where you're coming from.

00:38:28.771 --> 00:38:32.478
I think that's probably true for Marthah and Ryan as well.

00:38:32.478 --> 00:38:35.163
So because you get to just be.

00:38:35.202 --> 00:38:45.802
The part that you said where like your outside clothes are completely different to what you wear at home and the stuff that you wear at home is what brings you joy.

00:38:45.802 --> 00:38:49.168
That resonated so hard with me.

00:38:49.168 --> 00:38:52.679
I'm glad we're, we think the same.

00:38:52.679 --> 00:38:53.561
You feel the same.

00:38:53.561 --> 00:39:08.795
I feel like a lot of people, like if they really sat down and thought about it would agree with that because there's things that we gravitate towards and we love and we enjoy, but maybe they're not the norm out there.

00:39:08.795 --> 00:39:17.204
IRL in the corporate office or, you know, wherever you go on a day-to-day basis, but it is the stuff that brings you joy.

00:39:17.204 --> 00:39:17.284
I'm

00:39:18.485 --> 00:39:35.655
going to ask you like a, As part of your building your persona, building your community, is there a thing that, like, you didn't expect this to, like, opportunities or things that you've learned or even, like, grown your creative side or behind the scenes side?

00:39:35.655 --> 00:39:45.264
Like, are there things that this has given you that you didn't expect would happen when you started, like, building out your platform and your idea and your brand over a month?

00:39:47.007 --> 00:39:47.327
Okay.

00:39:47.327 --> 00:39:49.230
When I first started streaming, I was...

00:39:49.230 --> 00:39:51.516
doing this because I want to do it.

00:39:51.516 --> 00:40:06.938
I wasn't expecting to people come and watch and come and want to be with me, spend time with me or be part of the community that I'm building because I was being part of communities, but I've never created a community of my own.

00:40:06.938 --> 00:40:21.378
So I was finding it fun, but also shocking that people would come back and they would remember what I would say and they wanted to There's also the parasocial thing that you have to be cautious about.

00:40:21.378 --> 00:40:33.112
But more on the positive note, people were genuinely interested in being part of what I was building.

00:40:33.112 --> 00:40:35.496
And I loved that.

00:40:35.496 --> 00:40:43.246
And I really enjoyed continuing this process because I was like, you know what?

00:40:43.246 --> 00:40:44.887
I'm not just doing this for myself.

00:40:44.887 --> 00:40:46.248
I'm doing this for other people.

00:40:46.248 --> 00:41:05.994
And At first, my streams were not 18 plus, not because I swear a lot or I talk about weird sus things, but it was more like a lot of young kids and younger teens would join because I look young and I talk in a very comforting way.

00:41:05.994 --> 00:41:43.567
So kids would come to my streams and they would not understand the parasocial thing and they would be like oh I'm having trouble in my life and they would start talking trauma dumping on stream and it was this weird mix between I'm trying to make content I'm playing my game but that person thinks that I'm like their best friend or they think that I am their older sibling that they can have comfort moments with but I'm having fun.

00:41:43.567 --> 00:41:48.650
I'm having fun creating my community, but I think boundaries is healthy to have.

00:41:50.313 --> 00:42:09.030
No, I totally respect where you're coming from with that because it is hard because I think you're describing a moment where you're trying to build a community, you're trying to get started and you want everyone to feel seen, but then having to build the boundary around like this part of this stream with the trauma dumping part of this, I can't like be part of, right?

00:42:09.030 --> 00:42:17.516
And like, you don't want to exclude anyone because you're starting to really trying to build this thing but you had to like set boundaries for yourself

00:42:18.518 --> 00:42:38.505
yeah yeah that's that's the kind of iffy part of content creation especially streaming because you're reacting and and answering live to messages and comments you're getting right away like within a few seconds

00:42:41.349 --> 00:42:41.588
you

00:42:41.608 --> 00:42:45.733
mentioned anime and comics a few times.

00:42:45.733 --> 00:42:53.402
And I'm just curious, like, what comic worlds or what anime worlds are you most drawn to?

00:42:53.402 --> 00:42:56.284
Like, what are the ones you keep going back to on a bad day?

00:42:56.284 --> 00:42:56.985
Like, what's your vibe?

00:42:56.985 --> 00:42:59.289
Okay, okay, okay.

00:42:59.289 --> 00:43:02.231
I used to have like a horror manga phase.

00:43:02.231 --> 00:43:08.619
Like, I used to read a lot of Junji Ito manga when I was a very young.

00:43:08.619 --> 00:43:12.525
I shouldn't read those, but like right before bed, I'm like, oh, I want to feel something.

00:43:12.525 --> 00:43:14.208
And I would read like horror manga.

00:43:14.208 --> 00:43:15.309
That's

00:43:15.989 --> 00:43:16.251
wild.

00:43:16.851 --> 00:43:17.893
Yeah, I don't know.

00:43:17.893 --> 00:43:19.876
I was like, oh my god, I don't know what was going on.

00:43:19.876 --> 00:43:24.563
And yeah, and then I got into more fantasy and isekai anime.

00:43:24.563 --> 00:43:35.313
And I'm usually not a romance girly, but I do tend to enjoy more fantasy, more sci-fi related content.

00:43:35.313 --> 00:43:41.242
So comics, I'm reading a sports comic and I've been enjoying it recently.

00:43:41.242 --> 00:43:44.387
I've been also getting into a lot of Marvel movies.

00:43:44.387 --> 00:43:49.135
Growing up, I don't know why my parents were never into like superhero content or movies.

00:43:49.135 --> 00:43:50.235
So now I'm like, you know what?

00:43:50.235 --> 00:43:54.483
I'm paying my own internet and I have free time and free will.

00:43:54.483 --> 00:43:58.489
I'm gonna watch that Spider-Man movie that I never got to watch before.

00:43:58.489 --> 00:44:00.179
So I've That's what I do.

00:44:00.179 --> 00:44:00.980
And I'm like, you know what?

00:44:00.980 --> 00:44:01.599
Marvel.

00:44:01.599 --> 00:44:03.061
I love the Marvel Universe.

00:44:03.061 --> 00:44:06.726
And I would love to start reading the comics, too.

00:44:06.726 --> 00:44:12.271
So I'm like, I'm going to do everything that I didn't get the chance to do as a teenager and growing up.

00:44:12.271 --> 00:44:15.014
And now that I have adult money and free time.

00:44:15.014 --> 00:44:16.916
So I'm trying to...

00:44:16.916 --> 00:44:23.302
Because one of the worst things, one of my biggest fears is to die with regret.

00:44:23.302 --> 00:44:25.766
Regret of not eating a certain...

00:44:25.766 --> 00:44:33.039
dish, a regret of not watching that certain show, regret of not finishing that book series.

00:44:33.039 --> 00:44:37.425
So I don't know, this gnawing feeling at the back of my head all the time.

00:44:37.425 --> 00:44:46.938
That's one of the reasons why I'm exposed to this so many media at the same time, because I'm like, I don't want to miss my chances of finishing this or reading this or watching this.

00:44:47.500 --> 00:44:51.706
I was going to ask, so are you planning on stack ranking all at the end of the year?

00:44:51.706 --> 00:44:59.965
Which ones you think are like S tier or Is that a thought you have right now about like, here's all the content I consumed, I'm going to rank them?

00:45:00.005 --> 00:45:01.967
Oh my gosh, yes.

00:45:01.967 --> 00:45:17.050
Something that I've been considering is making a mid-year or like an end-of-year video of me compiling all my thoughts and all the media that I have watched.

00:45:17.050 --> 00:45:24.422
So I have a channel that I talk a lot about, you know, media, film and shows.

00:45:24.422 --> 00:45:30.987
So on that channel, I'm like, okay, at the end of the year, I can do like a category where I talk about all the anime I've watched.

00:45:30.987 --> 00:45:33.873
Then another category, I talk about all the shows I've watched.

00:45:33.873 --> 00:45:37.342
And then another category about all the shows, all the movies that I've watched.

00:45:37.342 --> 00:45:54.871
And I have another YouTube channel that I'm planning on starting is related to books and then on that channel, I can talk about all the manga, comics, books, series that I started or didn't finish or plan on starting or plan on buying or like getting rid of from my collection.

00:45:54.871 --> 00:46:00.137
So yes, I want to share my love and interest.

00:46:01.219 --> 00:46:02.581
I want to share your experiences.

00:46:03.003 --> 00:46:03.884
Yes, exactly.

00:46:03.923 --> 00:46:19.396
If you think about like who you are becoming, right, because you've described, you've shared a lot about like how you started in your life and just the evolution of you, if you think about who you're becoming, not just as a creator, but as a person, what feels important to hold on to?

00:46:19.396 --> 00:46:25.643
What are the lessons that you've learned today that you wish you could teach the younger version of yourself?

00:46:26.204 --> 00:46:29.947
I say, think about yourself.

00:46:29.947 --> 00:46:31.829
Be more selfish.

00:46:31.829 --> 00:46:38.416
And like I said, I'm a very hardcore people pleaser.

00:46:38.416 --> 00:47:20.161
And I would destroy I take food out of my plate so that other people have fuller bellies and that applied to any aspect of life whether it's like money or time or a show that I wanted to watch but if my brother wanted to watch like another show I'm like okay we can watch it but if I had to say something important to the past me I would be like be more selfish think about having fun now too because You don't want to keep being a version of yourself who's constantly thinking about the future, but never thinking about the present, never grounding yourself in the present.

00:47:20.161 --> 00:47:30.521
I used to be somebody who was constantly tired and stressed and overstimulated because I never took the time to be in the present and calm myself.

00:47:30.521 --> 00:47:33.436
I was never like, hey, I'm stressed right now.

00:47:33.436 --> 00:47:36.260
I'm just going to stop doing homework for like an hour.

00:47:36.260 --> 00:47:37.282
I'm just going to go.

00:47:37.282 --> 00:47:43.771
I could go to the cafe, grab a little pastry and just empty my head and be in the moment.

00:47:43.771 --> 00:47:51.402
Stop thinking about what will what other people will say or like what I'm doing in one year, two year and five years.

00:47:51.402 --> 00:47:52.923
Just ground yourself.

00:47:52.923 --> 00:47:53.605
Be in the moment.

00:47:53.806 --> 00:47:55.027
I think that's a great message, Mel.

00:47:55.027 --> 00:48:05.206
I think that's so cool that like you can look back at, you know, from where you are today and and Think about like what you would just to be more selfish when you were younger and like take care of yourself better.

00:48:05.206 --> 00:48:06.128
That's dope.

00:48:06.128 --> 00:48:06.969
All right.

00:48:06.969 --> 00:48:13.119
We're going to take a quick break and we'll come right back with MalBread and we'll we'll do reroll and see if we can capture the essence.

00:48:13.119 --> 00:48:14.121
MalBread.

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All right.

00:48:22.673 --> 00:48:24.617
And we're back with MalBread.

00:48:24.617 --> 00:48:27.242
Mal, are you ready to play reroll?

00:48:27.809 --> 00:48:28.751
Oh, hell yeah.

00:48:28.751 --> 00:48:30.032
I'm so excited.

00:48:30.733 --> 00:48:31.333
Okay, cool.

00:48:31.333 --> 00:48:34.117
Let me explain the rules of the game to you.

00:48:34.117 --> 00:48:38.041
So on the Gamer Tech Podcast, we play a game called Reroll.

00:48:38.041 --> 00:48:50.315
We've recorded notes about you throughout this episode, taking notes on your key personality traits, your preferred roles in gameplay, favorite genres and worlds, signature style or vibe, and visual inspiration.

00:48:50.315 --> 00:48:52.518
We're going to share that prompt with you on the screen.

00:48:52.518 --> 00:48:55.204
But throughout the podcast, we've been taking notes.

00:48:55.204 --> 00:48:57.907
And what we're going to do is enter this into our bot.

00:48:57.907 --> 00:49:02.914
And this bot will generate a first image of MalBread.

00:49:02.914 --> 00:49:06.878
From there, you'll have the opportunity to reroll twice.

00:49:06.878 --> 00:49:08.882
At any point, you can stay.

00:49:08.882 --> 00:49:12.766
If you feel like that image represents you, you don't have to change anything.

00:49:12.766 --> 00:49:18.833
But if you want to, you can change anything you want about the image with each reroll.

00:49:18.833 --> 00:49:21.657
So you'll get two after the first input.

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Do you have any questions about that?

00:49:24.931 --> 00:49:25.932
Crystal clear.

00:49:25.932 --> 00:49:26.492
There

00:49:26.512 --> 00:49:26.693
you go.

00:49:26.693 --> 00:49:27.193
Crystal clear.

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Marthah is going to read off the notes we've recorded about you, and I will show them to you on the screen.

00:49:33.740 --> 00:49:34.481
Okay, awesome.

00:49:34.481 --> 00:49:43.331
Yeah, so I'm super excited to share these with you because I feel like they're kind of all over the place and very interesting.

00:49:43.331 --> 00:49:46.653
Okay, so key personality traits right off the bat.

00:49:46.653 --> 00:49:48.115
You are so energetic.

00:49:48.115 --> 00:49:50.237
You are so expressive.

00:49:50.237 --> 00:49:54.393
And you make it very clear that you are a mental multitasker.

00:49:54.393 --> 00:50:04.313
Based off of the way you describe your streaming style, I think that you're very observant.

00:50:04.313 --> 00:50:08.181
I think that you are inclusive and you are engaging.

00:50:08.181 --> 00:50:22.070
Based off of how you described some of your life experiences, I think that you're very imaginative, you're confident, and you are a go-getter like no other.

00:50:22.070 --> 00:50:24.733
Oh, thank you.

00:50:24.733 --> 00:50:38.653
For your preferred roles and gameplay, I put storyteller, leader, caretaker, because of your role as an older sibling.

00:50:38.653 --> 00:50:48.755
And you mentioned that you feel like you're constantly performing, but online you get to be your truest self, which I think is pretty cool.

00:50:48.755 --> 00:50:52.621
My favorite genres and worlds.

00:50:52.621 --> 00:50:53.824
I have Japan.

00:50:53.824 --> 00:50:56.588
You mentioned Japan several times.

00:50:56.588 --> 00:50:58.010
Chibi.

00:50:58.010 --> 00:51:02.317
Definitely cozy bakery on a rainy day vibes.

00:51:02.317 --> 00:51:06.373
And I think this is where it starts to get kind of interesting.

00:51:06.373 --> 00:51:08.014
So we've got Dark Souls.

00:51:08.014 --> 00:51:09.657
We've got Dating Sims.

00:51:09.657 --> 00:51:10.978
We've got horror games.

00:51:10.978 --> 00:51:12.480
And we've got Dead by Daylight.

00:51:12.480 --> 00:51:16.222
But the interest doesn't stop there.

00:51:16.222 --> 00:51:19.586
When we get into your signature style or vibe, we've got comics.

00:51:19.586 --> 00:51:21.588
We've got cozy, cozy.

00:51:21.588 --> 00:51:23.431
Bakery.

00:51:23.431 --> 00:51:25.552
You've got some vibrant pajamas.

00:51:25.552 --> 00:51:26.614
You've got horror.

00:51:26.614 --> 00:51:29.918
You've got fantasy, sci-fi, Marvel comics.

00:51:29.918 --> 00:51:35.009
I'm imagining you in a garlic bread bakery of your dreams.

00:51:35.009 --> 00:51:42.418
And the visual inspiration that we have for you is, again, your garlic bread bakery.

00:51:42.418 --> 00:51:44.161
Toasty, of course.

00:51:44.161 --> 00:51:45.583
We have to include toasty.

00:51:45.583 --> 00:51:56.878
And what I think is really, really funny is Junji Ito versus, and you can correct me if I say this wrong, but Isika.

00:51:56.878 --> 00:52:05.659
I googled what those are, and those could not possibly be more different, but they both just feel like so you.

00:52:06.400 --> 00:52:08.903
Yes, that's, yeah, that's really me.

00:52:08.903 --> 00:52:13.570
Isekai is like in another world, like you get transported in another world.

00:52:13.570 --> 00:52:14.592
That's true, yeah.

00:52:14.592 --> 00:52:16.454
It was so interesting.

00:52:16.454 --> 00:52:23.306
I had no idea what I was googling, and then when I saw them and compared the images, I was like, oh my, this is so different, but I love it.

00:52:23.306 --> 00:52:29.539
And then, obviously, we are throwing in your favorite shade of pink.

00:52:29.539 --> 00:52:31.304
Oh, thank you.

00:52:31.304 --> 00:52:31.384
Yay.

00:52:31.384 --> 00:52:32.244
So,

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Mal, are you ready to re-roll?

00:52:36.293 --> 00:52:36.875
Oh, yes.

00:52:36.875 --> 00:52:39.760
I am fidgeting in my seat.

00:52:39.760 --> 00:52:40.682
Like, I can't wait.

00:52:40.682 --> 00:52:42.606
This is going to be so good.

00:52:43.208 --> 00:52:44.170
Let's see what happens.

00:52:53.697 --> 00:52:55.699
Oh my god, this is so good.

00:52:55.699 --> 00:52:56.380
This

00:52:56.501 --> 00:52:57.541
is adorable.

00:52:57.541 --> 00:53:03.007
And I'm actually, I don't know how you feel, but I actually love how Toasty looks.

00:53:05.990 --> 00:53:08.452
That is so cute.

00:53:08.452 --> 00:53:09.074
Shorter hair.

00:53:09.074 --> 00:53:12.016
I do have, I'm trying to grow out my hair.

00:53:12.016 --> 00:53:15.119
Toasty is very accurate, by the way.

00:53:15.119 --> 00:53:16.702
Isn't it cute?

00:53:16.702 --> 00:53:19.025
So cute.

00:53:19.025 --> 00:53:19.724
So adorable.

00:53:19.724 --> 00:53:20.306
I love it.

00:53:20.306 --> 00:53:23.429
And yeah, I'm trying to grow out my hair.

00:53:23.429 --> 00:53:28.657
I'm going to see how far I can go until I go bald from all the stress.

00:53:28.657 --> 00:53:31.762
What

00:53:31.802 --> 00:53:33.465
would you like to change about this picture?

00:53:33.465 --> 00:53:34.585
You can change anything you want.

00:53:34.585 --> 00:53:36.449
You have two re-rolls.

00:53:36.449 --> 00:53:38.711
We can adjust anything you want.

00:53:38.711 --> 00:53:39.914
But

00:53:41.617 --> 00:53:42.918
what would you like to see changed?

00:53:42.918 --> 00:53:44.862
I would say...

00:53:44.862 --> 00:53:46.880
The hair could be longer.

00:53:46.880 --> 00:53:50.403
I don't know if that counts as a re-roll.

00:53:50.403 --> 00:53:56.672
And usually the pajamas I wear during my streams are floral themed.

00:53:56.672 --> 00:54:01.179
And yeah, all my pajamas are floral themed.

00:54:01.179 --> 00:54:11.211
I always go to the fabric store with my mom and we always end up buying 100% cotton, cute floral, pastel, or spring themed fabrics.

00:54:11.211 --> 00:54:15.358
And you should put that you want a tee.

00:54:15.358 --> 00:54:17.400
tag hanging out of it.

00:54:17.400 --> 00:54:19.643
Oh, yes.

00:54:21.445 --> 00:54:24.168
I'm so excited for the picture to just be a giant mug.

00:54:24.208 --> 00:54:28.594
Hope with Toasty in the corner.

00:54:28.634 --> 00:54:29.755
Toasty's in the mug.

00:54:29.755 --> 00:54:31.777
Nice.

00:54:32.157 --> 00:54:34.420
All right.

00:54:34.420 --> 00:54:41.670
I wrote, I love everything about this picture, except I would like to change the pattern on the pajamas from fruits to floral themed.

00:54:41.670 --> 00:54:44.614
And could you make her hair much longer?

00:54:44.614 --> 00:54:48.527
I would also like a giant mug with a tea tag hanging from the side of it.

00:54:49.730 --> 00:54:50.311
Yes.

00:54:50.311 --> 00:54:55.079
I love how the edits on this are just bigger, bigger.

00:54:55.079 --> 00:54:55.380
Yeah.

00:54:55.380 --> 00:54:57.083
Because it fits you.

00:54:57.083 --> 00:54:58.505
It's so fitting for you.

00:54:58.505 --> 00:54:59.987
Thank you.

00:55:00.027 --> 00:55:03.693
If that prompt looks good, Mal, we can try your first re-roll.

00:55:04.155 --> 00:55:04.615
Go for it.

00:55:04.615 --> 00:55:04.996
Yeah.

00:55:05.016 --> 00:55:06.137
All right.

00:55:06.137 --> 00:55:06.659
Here we go.

00:55:06.659 --> 00:55:07.541
Let's see what happens.

00:55:07.541 --> 00:55:16.380
That is such a cool style.

00:55:16.380 --> 00:55:17.063
Oh my gosh.

00:55:17.463 --> 00:55:17.985
I love.

00:55:17.985 --> 00:55:21.170
Again, another very different style than the other stuff.

00:55:21.170 --> 00:55:22.032
So our

00:55:22.112 --> 00:55:29.527
whole idea with re-roll is like, could this like, not art, but like, could the picture represent the person and like their style and their, you know, what they're into?

00:55:29.527 --> 00:55:35.960
And that's kind of been the whole thing is like, it becomes a collage of like human beings and their personalities, you know?

00:55:35.960 --> 00:55:36.221
So.

00:55:36.260 --> 00:55:36.702
Yeah.

00:55:36.702 --> 00:55:44.659
We want you to walk away from the podcast and also re-roll feeling like you were seen.

00:55:44.659 --> 00:55:44.759
Yeah,

00:55:45.438 --> 00:55:45.780
totally.

00:55:46.860 --> 00:55:49.264
I do feel seen and heard.

00:55:49.264 --> 00:55:52.849
Well, it is an audio podcast, so it's more like I feel heard.

00:55:52.849 --> 00:55:54.130
Garlic bread.

00:55:54.150 --> 00:55:54.570
I love it.

00:55:54.570 --> 00:55:56.072
This is the beautiful part about re-roll.

00:55:56.072 --> 00:55:57.514
You actually never know what's going

00:56:00.838 --> 00:56:00.878
to...

00:56:00.878 --> 00:56:01.079
Oh, yeah.

00:56:01.079 --> 00:56:04.282
This is going to be fun.

00:56:04.282 --> 00:56:06.706
Rainy, rainy night.

00:56:06.706 --> 00:56:07.759
Oh, my gosh.

00:56:07.759 --> 00:56:08.219
The photos.

00:56:08.219 --> 00:56:09.943
Oh, I love this.

00:56:11.224 --> 00:56:11.565
Yes.

00:56:13.648 --> 00:56:14.951
This is accurate.

00:56:14.951 --> 00:56:16.032
Oh, my gosh.

00:56:16.032 --> 00:56:16.713
Yeah.

00:56:16.713 --> 00:56:17.855
Oh, you love this?

00:56:17.855 --> 00:56:18.617
Yeah.

00:56:18.617 --> 00:56:20.420
With the giant mug that is very me.

00:56:20.420 --> 00:56:21.380
There's Toasty.

00:56:21.380 --> 00:56:23.043
Oh, my gosh.

00:56:23.063 --> 00:56:23.885
Toasty's just chilling.

00:56:23.885 --> 00:56:28.472
So for our listeners, Mal is now in a garlic bread bakery.

00:56:28.472 --> 00:56:30.436
It is a rainy night outside.

00:56:30.436 --> 00:56:32.199
Her hair is much longer.

00:56:32.199 --> 00:56:34.121
She has a giant mug.

00:56:34.121 --> 00:56:37.016
for her tea or soup, TBD.

00:56:37.016 --> 00:56:41.461
And Toasty is sitting on a stool next to her in her floral pink pajamas.

00:56:41.461 --> 00:56:46.068
Mal, do you feel seen by this picture?

00:56:46.989 --> 00:56:47.349
I see.

00:56:47.349 --> 00:56:49.952
I feel very seen.

00:56:49.952 --> 00:56:55.219
But I did notice that the book we had in the first version is now gone.

00:56:55.219 --> 00:56:56.800
I wonder where the book went.

00:56:56.800 --> 00:56:59.304
Maybe having the last...

00:56:59.304 --> 00:57:03.530
Use the last re-roll and maybe try adding books...

00:57:03.530 --> 00:57:05.659
In the scenery.

00:57:05.659 --> 00:57:05.759
Okay.

00:57:07.842 --> 00:57:09.143
We also lost the bread.

00:57:09.143 --> 00:57:11.626
I think we had a wall of bread behind you in the first

00:57:11.766 --> 00:57:12.307
one.

00:57:12.307 --> 00:57:14.291
Can we scroll up and see this?

00:57:14.311 --> 00:57:15.813
I think there was a wall of bread.

00:57:15.813 --> 00:57:15.913
Yeah.

00:57:15.913 --> 00:57:22.262
Now it's telling us that there's bread, but I don't necessarily see

00:57:22.302 --> 00:57:22.521
the bread.

00:57:22.521 --> 00:57:24.344
But we have no evidence.

00:57:25.626 --> 00:57:25.726
But

00:57:25.827 --> 00:57:28.349
honestly, the first one was very good.

00:57:28.349 --> 00:57:31.469
Oh, I could be sitting on a stack of books.

00:57:31.469 --> 00:57:32.510
So it's, I

00:57:32.530 --> 00:57:33.231
don't know.

00:57:33.231 --> 00:57:35.355
Or maybe Toasty's on a stack of books.

00:57:36.396 --> 00:57:36.516
Yeah.

00:57:36.516 --> 00:57:38.338
Or Toasty could be on a stack of books.

00:57:38.338 --> 00:57:39.239
Yeah.

00:57:39.239 --> 00:57:41.043
That's actually a really good idea.

00:57:41.043 --> 00:57:45.648
Toasty looks so happy and endearing.

00:57:45.648 --> 00:57:48.393
I love him.

00:57:49.514 --> 00:57:51.757
I am concerned about what will happen.

00:57:51.757 --> 00:57:51.938
I'm

00:57:51.998 --> 00:57:52.559
scared.

00:57:52.559 --> 00:57:57.425
But I know that, like, re-roll number two is solid.

00:57:57.425 --> 00:57:57.726
Yeah.

00:57:57.726 --> 00:58:00.500
I was very impressed.

00:58:00.500 --> 00:58:06.670
I think maybe, I think I would prefer like a sunny day outside than a rainy day.

00:58:06.670 --> 00:58:12.177
Well, at the same time, it does give like the indoor cozy vibe if it's raining outside.

00:58:12.257 --> 00:58:15.523
And the duality of your horror games versus your...

00:58:15.543 --> 00:58:16.684
Okay, okay.

00:58:16.684 --> 00:58:18.106
No, no, no.

00:58:18.106 --> 00:58:18.206
Okay.

00:58:18.206 --> 00:58:18.628
I agree.

00:58:18.628 --> 00:58:19.027
I agree.

00:58:19.027 --> 00:58:19.389
Yeah.

00:58:19.389 --> 00:58:22.534
Oh, do we put like a creepy, like shadowy figure in the...

00:58:22.534 --> 00:58:24.235
I don't know if it's going to be too detailed.

00:58:24.235 --> 00:58:27.940
We don't have to, but like it's like cozy vibes.

00:58:27.940 --> 00:58:35.469
But like in the background, it's a little dark and rainy and there's maybe something or someone outside.

00:58:35.469 --> 00:58:35.550
All

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right.

00:58:36.371 --> 00:58:36.831
I added.

00:58:36.831 --> 00:58:38.393
I'm going to read the prompt.

00:58:38.393 --> 00:58:40.155
I love everything about this picture.

00:58:40.155 --> 00:58:41.036
Please.

00:58:41.036 --> 00:58:42.559
All caps.

00:58:42.559 --> 00:58:43.940
Don't change anything.

00:58:43.940 --> 00:58:51.309
But I would like to add bread on the wall underneath the garlic bread bakery sign and replace the stools with stacks of books for sitting.

00:58:51.309 --> 00:58:56.409
please put a creepy shadowy figure in the scene outside instead of the tree.

00:58:56.409 --> 00:59:00.876
Mal, are you ready to roll the

00:59:00.936 --> 00:59:03.101
dice for your last re-roll?

00:59:03.101 --> 00:59:04.003
Yes.

00:59:04.623 --> 00:59:09.291
This is also the beautiful part about re-roll is we actually don't know what'll happen.

00:59:09.291 --> 00:59:14.940
It's like every time, because you almost like you're rolling the dice to see like, will this work out?

00:59:14.940 --> 00:59:15.442
I don't know.

00:59:15.442 --> 00:59:16.202
Who knows?

00:59:16.202 --> 00:59:24.963
This is the moment of truth.

00:59:25.483 --> 00:59:27.827
It's looking promising so far.

00:59:28.206 --> 00:59:29.188
Marthah, don't say anything.

00:59:29.188 --> 00:59:29.228
I

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know.

00:59:30.148 --> 00:59:31.130
No, I know.

00:59:31.130 --> 00:59:31.570
I know.

00:59:31.871 --> 00:59:32.773
It's still listening to you.

00:59:32.773 --> 00:59:33.554
Don't say anything.

00:59:33.554 --> 00:59:35.195
Yeah, it's still listening.

00:59:35.195 --> 00:59:38.500
It's like a fantasy genie where it takes what you want.

00:59:38.500 --> 00:59:43.344
Well, I'm not going to give you quite nothing.

00:59:43.344 --> 00:59:44.005
What's a laugh?

00:59:44.887 --> 00:59:45.208
Oh, boy.

00:59:45.208 --> 00:59:45.487
Here

00:59:45.527 --> 00:59:45.807
we go.

00:59:45.807 --> 00:59:46.809
I see some bread.

00:59:46.809 --> 00:59:47.710
I see bread.

00:59:47.710 --> 00:59:50.273
Toasty's really high in the air.

00:59:50.313 --> 00:59:53.577
Maybe Toasty's the creepy figure now.

00:59:55.202 --> 00:59:56.023
No, he's still happy.

00:59:56.023 --> 00:59:56.925
He's still happy.

00:59:56.925 --> 00:59:57.846
He's still happy.

00:59:57.846 --> 00:59:58.788
He's still happy, yeah.

00:59:58.788 --> 00:59:59.329
He's smiling.

00:59:59.329 --> 01:00:00.331
His little arms are up.

01:00:01.652 --> 01:00:02.655
Are you, like, waving?

01:00:02.655 --> 01:00:02.735
Are

01:00:05.940 --> 01:00:06.541
you holding him up?

01:00:06.541 --> 01:00:07.282
Okay, okay.

01:00:08.644 --> 01:00:10.728
Wait, there's, like, oh, my God, there's a creepy photo.

01:00:11.449 --> 01:00:11.530
Yeah.

01:00:11.530 --> 01:00:11.650
Oh,

01:00:11.750 --> 01:00:12.351
my God.

01:00:12.351 --> 01:00:16.478
What is this boy doing?

01:00:16.478 --> 01:00:19.561
There are some bread-shaped, no, book-shaped

01:00:19.601 --> 01:00:19.862
bread.

01:00:19.862 --> 01:00:20.882
There's bread books.

01:00:20.882 --> 01:00:22.025
There's bread books.

01:00:22.025 --> 01:00:23.746
I love the bread books.

01:00:23.746 --> 01:00:24.827
I told you it would be like...

01:00:25.168 --> 01:00:26.710
Do we love it or do we hate it?

01:00:27.090 --> 01:00:27.811
What do you think, Mal?

01:00:27.811 --> 01:00:29.974
I also like the piece of bread hanging on the

01:00:30.074 --> 01:00:30.215
wall.

01:00:30.215 --> 01:00:30.596
Hanging.

01:00:30.635 --> 01:00:32.478
Like nailed

01:00:32.577 --> 01:00:34.039
up to the

01:00:34.400 --> 01:00:35.141
wall.

01:00:35.141 --> 01:00:36.003
I love that.

01:00:36.684 --> 01:00:36.963
No.

01:00:36.963 --> 01:00:38.925
It was the first sourdough loaf.

01:00:39.527 --> 01:00:39.927
Wow.

01:00:39.927 --> 01:00:41.889
And we got two mugs this time.

01:00:41.889 --> 01:00:43.532
Two giant mugs.

01:00:43.893 --> 01:00:44.893
Two giant mugs, yeah.

01:00:44.893 --> 01:00:46.911
one for you one for toasty

01:00:47.411 --> 01:01:05.632
one for toasty he can take a bath in it yeah I think actually I think this is this is like really good okay yeah it's really good it's just there's a book shaped bread that's the funny part but

01:01:05.753 --> 01:01:11.960
I love the book shaped bread quite honestly it's so funny I didn't even notice it until you said that either me

01:01:12.800 --> 01:01:13.501
neither

01:01:13.954 --> 01:01:14.715
Okay, cool.

01:01:14.715 --> 01:01:15.697
Well, if you love it,

01:01:16.577 --> 01:01:17.639
we'll stay with it then, yeah?

01:01:18.981 --> 01:01:20.563
Actually, I really like it.

01:01:20.563 --> 01:01:35.806
I mean, we got the little creepy figure in the back and I have no idea that I'm being stalked right now and I'm like chilling in my garlic bread bakery with Toasty with a mug of soup and a mug of tea on huge stacks of books.

01:01:35.806 --> 01:01:37.047
Yeah, I love this.

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Okay, great.

01:01:38.349 --> 01:01:38.610
Well...

01:01:38.610 --> 01:01:41.177
MalBread, you are the midnight baker.

01:01:41.177 --> 01:01:44.262
You're the cozy queen of comfort meets creeping horror.

01:01:44.262 --> 01:01:48.108
Floral PJs, toast plush, tea in hand, and a shadow at the window.

01:01:48.108 --> 01:01:49.570
Welcome to her world.

01:01:49.610 --> 01:01:51.472
Nice.

01:01:51.472 --> 01:01:52.534
I love this.

01:01:52.534 --> 01:01:54.456
This is so good.

01:01:54.476 --> 01:01:56.280
Well, thanks for playing Reroll, Mal.

01:01:56.280 --> 01:01:57.342
I'm glad this actually worked out.

01:01:57.342 --> 01:02:01.367
I was terrified of what would happen after the second Reroll.

01:02:01.367 --> 01:02:05.474
I am so glad that you got a picture that you love.

01:02:06.275 --> 01:02:07.237
Yay, I love it.

01:02:07.237 --> 01:02:08.153
Thanks.

01:02:08.153 --> 01:02:08.735
Thank you.

01:02:08.735 --> 01:02:10.998
Thank you for taking the time for the re-rolls.

01:02:10.998 --> 01:02:12.041
I really appreciate it.

01:02:12.260 --> 01:02:12.961
No, for sure.

01:02:12.961 --> 01:02:14.384
We're at the end of the show.

01:02:14.384 --> 01:02:17.750
And what we'd like to do is hand the show to you.

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Anything you want to share with your community, other creators, or anyone listening in, something that you want people to take away from the podcast, it's your show.

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So what would you like to say to the audience listening?

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Oh, okay.

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Let me take the mic and let me think about this because...

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I've been thinking about this ever since we started our call.

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And first of all, I would love to thank everybody in my life, good or bad, because you made me the version that I am today.

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And I would also like to tell future me, present me and also past me and everybody listening to this podcast right now and also the hosts, if you can, every day, try to do something for yourself, something selfish that will bring joy to you or help you relax and also do something for someone else.

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I feel like it's gonna keep you happy, keep you in a better version of yourself and also keep the community happy because to be in a close to perfect world, you want everybody to be content with whatever they're doing or wherever they are.

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Long story short, be happy.

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Do something for yourself every day.

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Do one thing for yourself every day and do one thing for someone else.

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And then you'll have a nice present and a good future too.

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So yeah, that's it.

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That's beautiful, Mal.

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Yeah.

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Do something for yourself every day.

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Yes.

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I just want to say...

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We really enjoyed hanging out with you.

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You are a beautiful person and you are so fun to hang out with.

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And I think I smiled the entire time we hung out and I just want to say thanks for coming on Gamertagged and hanging out with us.

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I can second that.

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I definitely smiled the whole time.

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It's been so fun listening to you talk about your story and just really fun getting to know you.

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Thank you.

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Thank you.

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Thank you.

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I felt like I could be my genuine self with you guys because you guys are genuinely good people and very fun and entertaining to interact with.

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So I had zero trouble being my authentic self with you guys here on this podcast.

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So thank you for being awesome and nice and genuine.

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For sure.

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Thank you, everyone, for listening tonight.

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And Mal, thanks again for joining us for this episode of Gamertagged.

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Thank you.

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Thank you for having me.

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That was MalBread, a person whose kindness radiates.

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I don't think we stopped smiling once during this conversation.

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And honestly, that says everything.

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Every person we meet here has their own recipe.

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For Mal, it's a mix of softness and survival, a dash of chaos, a spoonful of courage, and enough garlic to make you feel safe.

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She's proof that you don't need to be loud to be bold.

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and that the names we carry online can become homes for who we really are.

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So take Mal's advice.

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Be selfish.

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Do something for yourself today, and maybe something for someone else too.

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Thanks for listening to this episode of Gamertagged, where every name has a story, and every story deserves to be heard.

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The Gamer Tag Podcast is produced by the team at Gamer Tag Studios.

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Production and editing by Portella.

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Music direction by Ryan Osiris.

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Visual design by Sushi.

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Guests and partnerships by Marthah Maple.

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See you on the next episode of Gamertagged, where digital identities become real stories.

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Transmission ending.

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Goodbye.